I continue to share my message with these students, these students who thinks gangs and guns are the answers, I want them to see that there actions have consequences. I do not want them to think that they can just get away with anything.
I am going to do what I have to do, to stop these kids from killing themselves or someone else. Some of these kids may already have. It is scary to think that kids this young are branding weapons and using them, all in the name of some kind of brother or sisterhood. I want them to see true family does not do this.
I decided early on after the shooting that I was not going to let my life be over. I was not going to wallow in self pity, I was going to use what happened to me to educate others. That is not to say I never had any touble, because I had sturggles and questions, but my faith carried me through the darkness.
I am grateful for being able to spread my message. I am going to continue to do what I can to get the word out. Telling my story, may be painful, but if it helps someone it will be well worth it.
I still have struggles with what happened to me and sometimes the nightmares come and are so real, I wake up remembering the sounds of the shooting, the bullet whizzing by and hitting me. I remember falling down and for a few seconds not realizing what happened, but it did not take long for me to realize I had been shot. In these nightmares I can remember the moment when the doctor told me that I would not walk again, the fear and the questions. I have learned to live with what happened to me.
I am really glad that the door opened for me to work with these kids, I knew I had to do this. I did not want anyone to go through what I did. I do not want another child to be the victim of guns and gangs.