“Corrine we have to hurry up, we have to leave.” Saundra was not trying to sound panicked but she could not help it. He was on their tail and she knew it, the monster they were running from was on the hunt, and that alone was enough to terrify her. She wanted to be strong for her daughter though, but it was hard. She was doing what she could, but still she had to get them to safety get them away from the monster.
Corrine of course did not say anything, she hadn’t spoken a word in almost a year, but she mechanically obeyed what her Mother had told her. She looked terrified but that was a look that Saundra had grown all too familiar with, and it broke her heart. She wanted to so much more for her daughter, and finally she had left. It may well cost her, her life, but that would not matter if she could get her daughter somewhere safe.
She would recognize that truck anywhere, and she knew she was being followed, but she knew these roads better than he did, she had grown up in these parts, although she never told him that. She was glad she never had, because this was familiar ground to her, and unfamiliar to him, if she had to she could hide herself and her daughter, but before it came to that, she was going to try to lose him in the car. He did not know these back country roads the way she did, and she was going to do her best to lose him, for her sake but more than that for her daughters safe. Maybe if they got away from them Corrine would find her voice once again, and that was what Saundra wanted, she wanted her daughter to find her voice once again. She wanted her daughter to do normal six year old things not lock herself in this shell, where Saundra did not know how to reach her.
Saundra pulled off on a back country road when she was sure she had lost David, she pulled over to the side to check on Corrine. She worried about her daughter, and wanted to get her as far away from the monster as possible. Perhaps one day Corrine would find her voice again, the voice David her own father had stolen from her. As she checked on her daughter and saw that she was okay, she began reflecting on John 6 where Jesus fed the multitudes with a little boys lunch.
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Jesus Feeds the Five Thousand
6 Some time after this, Jesus crossed to the far shore of the Sea of Galilee (that is, the Sea of Tiberias), 2 and a great crowd of people followed him because they saw the signs he had performed by healing the sick. 3 Then Jesus went up on a mountainside and sat down with his disciples. 4 The Jewish Passover Festival was near.
5 When Jesus looked up and saw a great crowd coming toward him, he said to Philip, “Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?” 6 He asked this only to test him, for he already had in mind what he was going to do.
7 Philip answered him, “It would take more than half a year’s wages[a] to buy enough bread for each one to have a bite!”
8 Another of his disciples, Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, spoke up, 9 “Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?”
10 Jesus said, “Have the people sit down.” There was plenty of grass in that place, and they sat down (about five thousand men were there). 11 Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks, and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted. He did the same with the fish.
12 When they had all had enough to eat, he said to his disciples, “Gather the pieces that are left over. Let nothing be wasted.” 13 So they gathered them and filled twelve baskets with the pieces of the five barley loaves left over by those who had eaten.
14 After the people saw the sign Jesus performed, they began to say, “Surely this is the Prophet who is to come into the world.” 15 Jesus, knowing that they intended to come and make him king by force, withdrew again to a mountain by himself.
Jesus Walks on the Water
16 When evening came, his disciples went down to the lake, 17 where they got into a boat and set off across the lake for Capernaum. By now it was dark, and Jesus had not yet joined them. 18 A strong wind was blowing and the waters grew rough. 19 When they had rowed about three or four miles,[b] they saw Jesus approaching the boat, walking on the water; and they were frightened. 20 But he said to them, “It is I; don’t be afraid.” 21 Then they were willing to take him into the boat, and immediately the boat reached the shore where they were heading.
22 The next day the crowd that had stayed on the opposite shore of the lake realized that only one boat had been there, and that Jesus had not entered it with his disciples, but that they had gone away alone. 23 Then some boats from Tiberias landed near the place where the people had eaten the bread after the Lord had given thanks. 24 Once the crowd realized that neither Jesus nor his disciples were there, they got into the boats and went to Capernaum in search of Jesus.
Jesus the Bread of Life
25 When they found him on the other side of the lake, they asked him, “Rabbi, when did you get here?”
26 Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, you are looking for me, not because you saw the signs I performed but because you ate the loaves and had your fill. 27 Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. For on him God the Father has placed his seal of approval.”
28 Then they asked him, “What must we do to do the works God requires?”
29 Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.”
30 So they asked him, “What sign then will you give that we may see it and believe you? What will you do? 31 Our ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written: ‘He gave them bread from heaven to eat.’[c]”
32 Jesus said to them, “Very truly I tell you, it is not Moses who has given you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. 33 For the bread of God is the bread that comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.”
34 “Sir,” they said, “always give us this bread.”
35 Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. 36 But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. 37 All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. 38 For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. 39 And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. 40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.”
41 At this the Jews there began to grumble about him because he said, “I am the bread that came down from heaven.” 42 They said, “Is this not Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How can he now say, ‘I came down from heaven’?”
43 “Stop grumbling among yourselves,” Jesus answered. 44 “No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them, and I will raise them up at the last day. 45 It is written in the Prophets: ‘They will all be taught by God.’[d] Everyone who has heard the Father and learned from him comes to me. 46 No one has seen the Father except the one who is from God; only he has seen the Father. 47 Very truly I tell you, the one who believes has eternal life. 48 I am the bread of life. 49 Your ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness, yet they died. 50 But here is the bread that comes down from heaven, which anyone may eat and not die. 51 I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats this bread will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world.”
52 Then the Jews began to argue sharply among themselves, “How can this man give us his flesh to eat?”
53 Jesus said to them, “Very truly I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. 54 Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day. 55 For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. 56 Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in them. 57 Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me. 58 This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your ancestors ate manna and died, but whoever feeds on this bread will live forever.” 59 He said this while teaching in the synagogue in Capernaum.
Many Disciples Desert Jesus
60 On hearing it, many of his disciples said, “This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?”
61 Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, “Does this offend you? 62 Then what if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! 63 The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you—they are full of the Spirit[e] and life. 64 Yet there are some of you who do not believe.” For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. 65 He went on to say, “This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled them.”
66 From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.
67 “You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve.
68 Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69 We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God.”
70 Then Jesus replied, “Have I not chosen you, the Twelve? Yet one of you is a devil!” 71 (He meant Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, who, though one of the Twelve, was later to betray him.)
After spending time reading and reflecting on the Lords word, Saundra knew they had to get as many as miles away from them as possible. She had to lose David all together, because if she didn’t it certainly could mean trouble for her and her daughter. He would kill them she had no doubt of that. She had seen what he was capable of.
Saundra kept her eyes glued to the road, and the few cars around her, thanking the Lord she did not see his pick-up of course she knew that he could have picked up another vehicle by now, he certainly had the means. She did not want to think about that though, because she wanted to think about getting away from this man and getting on with my life.
The road seemed to go on forever, she was growing tired, but she did not dare stop yet, she wanted to make sure she had many miles past them before she found a hotel to get a few hours of sleep. Some out of the way place that would take cash. She did not want to have to give her name or any information, because she knew that he could track them down that way. She had to pay cash and only cash, until she knew they were safe. The fact was she really did not want anything to do with David’s money, but she had taken five thousand dollars from the account to get them to safety. The money was partly hers anyway.
Lord thank you for getting me this far, thank you for letting him not find us yet, and I pray he never does. I want to lose him and lose him for good. She had to make sure that they were safe, that she and her daughter were going to be okay.
“Corrine we are going to be safe, we are going to get away from him, and you will get to be a little girl again.” Saundra told her daughter, praying that this was a promise that she could keep.
Of course Saundra’s words were met with silence, but one day she would hear her daughters voice again, hear her daughters laughter again.
1 Thessalonians 5
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The Day of the Lord
5 Now, brothers and sisters, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2 for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. 3 While people are saying, “Peace and safety,” destruction will come on them suddenly, as labor pains on a pregnant woman, and they will not escape.
4 But you, brothers and sisters, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. 5 You are all children of the light and children of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. 6 So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be awake and sober. 7 For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night. 8 But since we belong to the day, let us be sober, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. 9 For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10 He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
12 Now we ask you, brothers and sisters, to acknowledge those who work hard among you, who care for you in the Lord and who admonish you. 13 Hold them in the highest regard in love because of their work. Live in peace with each other. 14 And we urge you, brothers and sisters, warn those who are idle and disruptive, encourage the disheartened, help the weak, be patient with everyone. 15 Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always strive to do what is good for each other and for everyone else.
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
19 Do not quench the Spirit. 20 Do not treat prophecies with contempt 21 but test them all; hold on to what is good, 22 reject every kind of evil.
23 May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it.
25 Brothers and sisters, pray for us. 26 Greet all God’s people with a holy kiss. 27 I charge you before the Lord to have this letter read to all the brothers and sisters.
28 The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.
Saundra drove for a few more hours, before finding another hotel one that she was sure David would not find them in, they were not going to start a new life, a life where they were safe. Saundra wanted to make sure her daughter was safe. Corrine had already been through so much because of David.
Thank you Lord for getting us this far, please continue to lead us to safety as I know only you can. Thank you for letting me see that it was time to go before it was too late, for Corrine and for I. I have to believe you are continue to get us to safety, that you are going to continue to show us the way. I know I cannot do any of this without you Lord.
The hotel room was nothing fancy, but they didn’t need fancy, what Saundra and Corrine needed was safe. They needed to make sure that they were going to be okay and this place was the best place for them to sleep. It would only be for a night or two, because Saundra knew that they could not stay in one place to long. It would not be safe to stay in any one place for too long.
Saundra was beginning to feel that she would be running forever. She never wanted to stop running, instead she wanted to start a new life, one that did not involve running all the time. Corrine deserved better than that, but for now they just had to get somewhere safe, wherever that was. Saundra was not even sure where they would find a safe place or even if they would. It was hard for her to imagine a life where they were safe, but she had to believe it was going to be a short time before they found somewhere safe, when her and Corrine could stop running and get on with a normal life, whatever that was. Perhaps Corrine would find her voice again, and become the bubbly giggling girl she had been before the previous year, when her Father had starting using her for a punching bag.
Forgive me for letting this go on for a year. I know that was wrong of me, I should have ran a long time ago, but I was too afraid, it took him pulling a gun to Corrine’s head for me to run, but I am so thankful the gun did not go off that my daughter is still here, I know that could have made it this far without you Lord. I know that neither of us would have made it this far without you Lord. I am so thankful for all you have been given. I am going to make a better life for my daughter, because I feel that you have called me to do that. I love you Lord and I thank you.