I never thought I would say this, but I miss Michaela, I miss her laughter, and I even miss the way she used to snoop through my journals.

Michaela and I are ten months apart, Mom called us the almost twins, which was funny, because we are polar opposites, I am more intellectual, Michaela is more active,. at least she was now she is laying in a hospital bed.  She is alive and awake yes, that is a blessing to be sure, but the doctors say she may never walk again.

I can't even begin to imagine, what must be going through her mind.  My heart hurts for her, because I know Michaela is just not one to sit still, she never was.

All because some idiot got behind the wheel drunk, and my sister on her bike, got slammed into, it was a good thing she was not hurt more than she was.  Her scrapes, and bruises have faded, but the spinal cord damage remains.

Thank God Michaela was wearing a helmet, actually she always did, she was villigent about it.  I thank God for that, we all do.

Our room is not the same without Michaela.  I miss having someone to talk to.  I always wanted a room of my own, and now with Michaela in the hospital, all I want is my sister back.

I just thank God she is going to live, for a few days even that was questionable, now she is awake and alert, even smiling, but sadness hides behind that smile.

I know Michaela and I know she is hurting.  Hurting because someone was to stupid to pull out a phone and call a taxi instead they got behind the wheel drunk and nearly killed my sister.

I am supposed to forgive, I know that, but right now forgiveness is hard, someone hurt my sister.  Her life is never going to be the same all because someone had to drink and drive.

To Be Continued...