If you think I have "gotten over it" nearly ten years later, you couldn't be more mistaken. The fact of the matter is this: I have not gotten over it. I can't get over it. I won't get over it until justice is served against the bastards who did this.
I was in the Pentagon when it was hit by terrorists. I barely survived with my life. I was burned over 60% of my body and I now have scars over a good portion of my body. I still suffer from flashbacks and am awakened nearly every night by reacurring nightmares. Every time I hear a plane flying overhead, I am looking for a place to hide, and loud, sudden noises absolutely undo me.
I can no longer work again. I am on permanent disability for post traumatic stress disorder and mental anguish. I see a mental health counselor every week, but it just doesn't seem to be doing me any good.
I won't get into what the motherfuckers are planning to build on the site where the Twin Towers once stood. As far as I am concerned, the whole lot of them can go to hell. I just don't give a damn anymore; it seems that my rights are being violated against and what I think, what I say doesn't even count. So to hell to those who want the mosque. They can kiss my ass as far as I'm concerned!
Even though I wasn't in NYC during the attacks, I still was affected. I was at work at the Pentagon when it was hit. I still have marks, reminders of what the ragheads did, and I am extremely angry. I have tried to forgive them, but they didn't care about ME, about America. If they hated us that much, then what in the hell were they doing here in the first place?? I think our borders need to be sealed tighter than a drum, and those who are here illegally need to be deported. NOW.
Every day I cry for my fallen comrades. I miss them more and more each day. I am trying to get on with my life, but every time I see the news, I want to throw something through the television or physically hurt someone. I have had it with the memories; I need some relief! The news certainly isn't helping: it continues to get worse each and every day, and I am more than sick of it!!
I see the news, and it's like acid is being poured on my burn scars. The pain goes just a little bit deeper, and the pain only intensifies. It's getting so bad it seems that the only option for me is to end it all. I can't take much more of this ongoing anguish!