The written word is my greatest enemy.
I have difficulty in reading or writing. It is easier if I speak into a tape recorder or take notes by recording the teacher's voice, then listening to her lectures later on as I do my homework. When I DO have to write, I have to struggle with trying to read and putting the letters or numbers down correctly, but even when I do my best, I end up nearly flunking out.
For me a C or a D is good. I hate having to be yelled at by my Dad, who doesn't really understand my struggles: he just thinks that I am not "applying myself" when in all truth, I AM. Mom is more understanding, thank goodness, but she tends to side with Dad; after all he IS her husband. So I guess I'm stuck.
Mom and Dad tend to fight about me and then I wish I could stay at Grandma's for a while. She never belittles me or calls me hopeless or stupid. Dad always does and then he wonders why I hate school. Instead of being supportive, Dad makes me feel worse than ever.
The only reason why I am doing this here on the computer is because my computer has Spell-Check, which helps me out greatly; it corrects my mistakes automatically and then my paper doesn't look as if a retard wrote it. (I know I am not retarded, but I feel like one, especially when the other kids tease me or my dad tells me that I am stupid.)
Yes, I am cheating, but I'm sorry. I cannot help it. I have to do something to help myself!
I tend to miss a lot of school bcause I get a lot of stomachaches (mostly from nerves or worrying about whether Dad will call me names or if the other kids will tease me yet again). I don't like to miss school, but how can I enjoy it when learning itself is so hard for me??
Just pray for me; I wish God could make my dyslexia go away so school would be a lot easier for me!! I hate struggling so hard the way I do!!