Tossing and turning in my bed one night, I found myself unable to sleep. Something was bothering me but I couldn’t put my finger on what it was. Unable to ignore the restlessness in my spirit I grudgingly got out of bed, walked over to our den and turned on the computer. If I couldn’t sleep, at least I could try to get some work done. Waiting for the old machine to warm up, I rubbed the sleep from eyes and began a grumbling sort of prayer to God. I spent a few minutes ranting and raving about every irritation I had ever had before the little light bulb in my head clicked on. All my ranting and raving was really just a cover-up for the fact that I was feeling insecure as a Christian.
At first I wanted to resist the idea that I was feeling insecure because I knew a lot about my identity in Christ. I knew that I was a child of God (John 1:12) and that I was chosen of God, and holy and dearly loved (Colossians 3:12; 1 Thessalonians 1;4). With that kind of identity, how could I possibly feel insecure? But I did. The truth was, I had hit a humdrum point in my faith walk with God and it triggered insecurity. The longer I sat in front of my computer considering my identity in Christ, the more I began to wonder where my security in Christ fit in, and if there was a difference.
I looked up both words in the dictionary and found my answer. Identity refers to “The condition of being the same as a person or thing described” while security refers to, “The state of being or feeling free from fear, anxiety or doubt.” Aah haa! That was it. While I understood my identity in Christ, I needed to understand my security in Christ in order to be free from fear and doubt and move to the next level in my faith walk with God.
Out of curiosity I typed the words “Secure in God” on googles.com to see what I could find. Waiting for my dinosaur of a computer system to bring up the results, I said a quick prayer asking God to give me something that would help me grow in my security. No sooner was the prayer released from my lips, did a book called Secure in Heart: Overcoming insecurity in a woman’s life, by Robin Weidner pop up on the screen. I couldn’t double click the link fast enough when I saw the title and as soon as I read the excerpt, I was sold. It said: “Being secure in heart is about knowing who God is, who Jesus is, who you are…and being able to apply this knowledge in a way that sets you free.”
Was God speaking to me or what? I ordered the book then eventually connected with nine other women to begin the Secure in Heart study that took us beyond our identity as believers and led us through a journey of truth that helped each of us become stronger women of faith.
Together, we discovered false securities that we had leaned on but never recognized as lies from the devil which pulled us away from God. We also discovered, through a deeper revelation of God’s character and unconditional love, that being secure in heart is our rightful position as believers. The key however, is being willing to engage in the battle necessary to maintain our security. As the author herself says, “Security in heart is our most precious gift from God--the ultimate overflowing of his goodness to us. But because of its extreme value, it’s a gift that must be battled for and protected.” Here I thought, I had reached a humdrum point in my faith walk, only to discover that God has so much more for me to learn. I just had to be willing to fight for it.
Having a deeper revelation of who God is, and also understanding who we are in God, equips us for the battle. And when we apply the truth of God’s Word daily, we are truly able to fight, win and stand strong in our security.