I'm gonna play things cool. Pretend that I didn't see anything when, in reality, I saw more than I bargained for.
I don't want to lose the longstanding friendship I have had with Megan, but at the same token, I thought Megan was more decent than what I had witnessed yesterday afternoon in the hallways between our next to last and final classes of the day. What I saw wasn't exactly G- or even PG- rated material.
Megan was lip-locked with the captain of the football team. The boy in question, was pawing Megan with his meaty, powerful hands; I think he wanted to take her sweater off and start making out with her right there at the lockers. It was disgusting; it physically made me sick to my stomach.
I know I should confront Megan with this situation, but at the same token, I'm scared that she will drop me as a friend. I will try to pretend I didn't see anything, but every time I think of it, I bust out into a cold sweat and I start shaking, plus the "queasies" form again right in the pit of my belly.
I am trying to be a good Christian girl. I know it's wrong to gossip, but what I saw truly shook me to the core. I may end up telling Mama and Papa about Megan. I can't keep it inside of me. I would right out confront Megan and talk to her about this, but as I said, too much is at stake. I mean, Megan and I have been the very best of friends ever since kindergarten; we know each other like a book.
I'm gonna have to do some serious talking with God tonight before I go to bed ... or at least, record my feelings down in my secret journal. It is killing me inside; I don't want Megan to end up getting hurt or into something she may later regret!
~To be continued.~