I suddenly wish I had my legs back .... being paralyzed like this isn't what it is cracked up to be ....
Since my first entry, I have been released from the hospital (the regular hopsital that is) and am now at the rehab facility, where I have been undergoing hours or intense physical and occupational therapies. It's nothing but sheer torture; my arms, back, and shoulders are so sore it is all I can do to keep from crying. At least I'm past the damn tilt table! That thing was my enemy the first week: every time they sat me up, I would throw up, get dizzy, or pass out (sometimes all three). It was very bad!
I know all this therapy is necessary for me to regain lost strength or to learn new skills, but I miss being able to walk, roller skate, roller blade, dance, or run. All of a sudden I can't move my legs, not even an inch. They just sit there like two pale, dead sausages! It's awful!
To tell you a bit about myself, my name is Aurora Lynee' Davies. I am fourteen years old. I live with my family in Ypsilanti, Michigan. I have a mom and dad, two sisters (Starshine LeAnn and Sunny Layne; they are eleven and eight), and three brothers (Teal Michael, Birch Adair, and Hollis Regan, who are six, four, and just turned one). Our grandmother, Penny, who is my dad's mom, lives with us as well, as does our 22-pound Ragdall cat, "Bluebell".
I will be going into the ninth grade next month.
The thing that's probably worrying the most at the current time is how my friends are going to react when they see me sitting in a wheelchair, unable to walk again. I'm scared that they will stop being my friends or won't have anything to do with me because I am paralyzed. I am scared that people will stare, point, say things, or worse, tease me and call me names. I don't think I could ever live with that ...
It seems all I have ever done since this happened is cry. I wonder what is going to happen to Ginger, who is my horse. I know she didn't mean to throw me off her back, but something made a noise and moved, and it spooked her, so she reacted. I just happened to be on her back when she got scared and went crazy. It is a thousand miracles I didn't crack my head open or break my neck and become paralyzed further!
I know I am going to have days where I will feel sorry for myself or think of my old life. I am having one now as I write. I can feel the tears sliding down my face. All I can say is this: just keep me in your prayers; I don't want to be in a wheelchair for the rest of my life! I want to run! I want to dance! I want to walk again!
~Aurora Lynee'. :( +Tears!+
~To be continued.~