The treatments were wearing Sierra down, and Serena worried so much each time she looked at her sister, she could barely eat, and she was always so tired, this was one battle she had fought before but the battle was tiring.

Lord give Sierra the strength to fight this battle, she's wearing down with each passing day.

When Sierra had the energy she wrote in a new journal this time chronicling yet another battle with Cancer, a battle that she prayed she would win.  A battle that was hard, but loosing would mean dying.

Jamee spent a lot of time with her aunt, trying to comfort her as only a three year old could.  Asking if she needed bandaids or soup to make the owie go away, and it brought tears to Sierra's eyes watching her beautiful niece care for her this way.

Feb.3

It scares me this battle, I want to win it, I must win it, I have a niece who I want to grow up, if I can't have children of my own I can handle that, but not being able to see Jamee grow up would break my heart. 

Jamee has so many questions lately.  She asked me the other day what happened to my legs, and why I didn't have them?  How do you explain to a three year old things like that?  She's a child and curious I know, but that's not a question easy to answer.  How do I tell her the very sickness I am fighting now took my legs from me before she was born?

" I want to see Jamee grow up Serena, but if I can not please let her know I love her, I will always love her."

" Sierra don't talk like that, you can't give in on this battle."

" Serena I am not, but I am facing facts and they scare me.  What more can cancer take from me than it already has?  How many more treatments, sickness, and mouth sores do I have to endure?  What happens if I do go into remission but a few months later the cancer is back."

" We will cross that bridge when and if we come too it.  You have to keep the faith Sierra."

"I'm trying."  Sierra was crying now, and Serena trying to comfort her. 

" Sis, I am here with you until the end of this battle you know that don't you?"

" Thank you Sis."

" You don't need to thank me.  I need you as much as you need me and Jamee needs you as well."

To Be Continued