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“I know you’ve been upset Marishka, but I think it’s time we talk about telling Vania again, she deserves to know where she comes from.”

“I know Jacob, but it’s going to be so hard for her, and we have so much to deal with already. Jelena refuses to see her Mom she’s been so depressed lately, hiding out in her room.”

“I know honey, but that doesn’t mean we can keep putting off telling Vania.”

Jacob was right. I knew that with all my heart, but it was so hard thinking about telling Vania. How do you tell your child that she was raped by the people who were suppose to love her when she was an infant, by the family who was suppose to care for. Vania knew there were reasons following her adoption, but she didn’t know all the reasons. I hadn’t wanted to tell her before this, to tell you the truth I didn’t want to tell her at that moment either.

“Please think about Marishka, we need to talk to her and she has been asking questions. She’s going to want answers soon.”

“I know that she needs to know, but talking about it is not easy, and I am dealing with so much now.”

“Honey if we keep holding off on it, Vania’s going to find out in a way we don’t want her to and she’s going to be upset because we didn’t tell her anything.”

I knew Jacob was right in that aspect. I certainly didn’t want Vania finding out the circumstances of her adoption. It would be hard enough her finding out from us, but harder if she found out in some other way. Finally I had to agree with Jacob, we couldn’t put it off any longer.

“I guess we better talk to her alone after school.” I finally agreed. “ Today’s a good day as any I guess, we both have the day off.”

“Good, I know it’s not going to be easy for any of us, but Vania is old enough to know her story now. She will be graduating high school before we know it.”

“Please don’t remind me that my oldest will be leaving the nest soon.”

“Okay I won’t remind you.” Jacob attempted to joke, but I knew when the time came for Vania to leave Jacob would be as much of a basket case as I was.

I decided that I wouldn’t go to see Sophia that day. I had to figure out how in the world I was going to tell Vania, how in the world we were going to tell her, her story in a way that would hurt her the least. I wanted to be as sensitive about this as I could.

“Maybe Dustin can take Jelena, Dustin and Ana to a movie tonight.”

“I’ll call and ask him.” I agreed. I knew the kids wouldn’t refuse spending time with their cousin. They looked up to him.

“Good.”

Soon I made the call, and talked to Dustin. Not surprisingly he agreed. I explained to him that Jacob and I had to talk to Vania, and because he already knew the circumstances surrounding her adoption he completely understood.