I am sorry I have not written in a few days, but I was to busy being in a bad mood this weekend, and I figure it's better I just let myself chill before I wrote anymore. I guess I have just been feeling sorry for myself. and that's not really something I want to do, instead I would like to live to serve the Lord, but when I am doing the why me routine it is my flesh getting in the way.
I want to be stronger but sometimes I am weak, I let the flesh take over and I do not rely on the Lord as often as I should.
I just kept thinking about all I was doing last summer, going on hikes, swimming (Yes I can still swim, but it's not like I can dive anymore) Or simply standing up or enjoying the feel of damp grass in between my toes, those things are gone fro me now, but instead of focussing on what I do not have, I need to focus on what I have, I need to thank God for what I can't do.
Sunday School usually goes well, and I love the kids I work with, but this Sunday Morning it took all my energy not to break down in front of them, any little thing was setting me off.
I am happy to say that after a few days of rpraying, and getting closer to the Lord I am feeling much better than this weekend, I went to work yesterday in today, and am ashamed to admit that Monday morning was not my best morning but today I am feeling much better and work went well.
Well I am going to end this here, got home from work just a bit ago and my stomach is begging for food