Louie, Let me say you NEVER EVER failed me. You did the best you could but the way you were always talking about how busy and overwhelmed you were, I always felt like I was just in your way and a total burden. I hope one day you will realize that you had nothing to do with my failure.  Would it make you feel better if I did not end things now and waited for Jack to get out of prison to finish me off? That is what is going to happen! I can't escape him. Even from prison he has been sending me threatening notes. He has an insider on the hospital staff who is keeping him up to date on my recovery. I'm sure this person has told him everything of my plans to move, the location and everything involved. So, even in California I won't be safe. He knows all about it.

I hope all of you can come to understand why I feel the need to do what I am doing. I have no family left. My parents are both dead and now my children are gone. I don't expect anyone to understand. I know it is unimaginable for a person to want to stop living, but I hope this letter will help everyone understand at least a little bit better.

I hope you know how much all of your help and support has meant to me and my girls. You did suceed in helping my children to a better life than they would have had without you.

Love,
Audrey Jackson