I forget sometimes how sweet and sensitive you are, underneath it all is the bond we share. I know little sisters can be such a pain, I’ve teased and tormented with such distress, and it wasn’t like you didn’t give me grief, pressing for perfect and dismissing every suitor I ever brought around. I know you just wanted the best for me.
There were so many things I never told you, hiding my pain from the light of time and in that place, depression was a close friend. Ashamed, I admit I entertained thoughts of ending it all. I know you’ll forgive me God knows our humanity is a challenge, and sometimes I just take it all too seriously. I escaped those thoughts once I remembered none of it was real , cuz I always was good at transformation , that natural instinct that keeps you alive, and its led me to a place that is warm and safe and a man’s heart that is incredibly light filled. He is love and that keeps me strong. I have found myself laughing again.
I love you and always will, through every trial and celebration we go through. Its nearing thanksgiving and a time to think of home in all the ways it is perceived, knowing my memories are clearer and yet some still amiss. and accepting that none of them ever mattered anyway We’ve all been many things to each other, and we know to never resist our callings, heart strings, and soul stirrings.
I’ve been guided here, perhaps for me, perhaps for him, perhaps for no other purpose than to share in this incredible time upon the planet. There are tremendous clearings happening, shifts in consciousness, and releasing of much grief, and the potential for such incredible joy . In life things don’t always seem to make sense, trust was all we ever had, and hope that our souls would know the way.
You have prayed for me and shared your spirit, and I do the same for you. For we are of the same tribe, stars, and soul pieces, we sense and feel it Our hearts are tender and easily shattered, and so few understand the roles we play, and the pain we have endured, with intent to create changes, where suffering ceases and joy replaces, and earth is balanced again. They are out there now and gathering, seeking leaders to help them along, and you, yes you, always excelled to rally a cause, you know how to tap into the light, you know the power of god. You’re needed you know in the great plan, and whether we want to or not, we just know we must, but I never did have to tell you that cuz you already knew. (warm smiles and heart hugs)