Legoless here, feeling rather blue, my whole world has been turned upside down, and I just don't know what to do. I will never walk again, and there is a chance I will not regain full use of my arms, I hate tthe thought I hate being so dang dependent on everyone. You know that is just not me.
I am scared to for Maddie, it has been touch and go, my parents have been trying to hide it from me, but how could I not know? The way they keep dissapearing and everything.
Thank you for loaning me your voice activated software. It's nice to be able to at least say somethings by myself. The doctors are already working on raising the bed up a little at a time, I never imagined that would be some kind of accomplishment, but the sooner I am able to sit up without feeling as if I am going to pass out, the sooner I can get on with therapy, and get out of this bed. You know being bed bound is not something I have ever taken kindly too.
The doctors said I will probably be moved to the Rehab unit tomorrow, because my leveles are well they should be, and I have been doing better than anyone expected all things considered. I just hate the fact that I am paralyzed, that I can't do a darn thing for myself. It makes me so mad! This is just not something I take well to, but then again who would.
Sierra has been coming and going, her twin sister Serena has come in a few times as well, its like looking at mirror images, accept for the fact that Sierra lost both her legs and wears prosthetic legs, that hasn't slowed her down though as you know, but she said when she first lost her legs she felt alot like I did now, and she had to go through Cancer treatments on top of that, I am glad she has been cancer free for six years now, but she misses this little girl that she use to know Kelly who died of Cancer when she was only nine, she would be nineteen now had she lived.
Well I have jabbered enough, please let me know about Maddie, you are the only one who knows that I know, because I havent told Mom or anyone that I know.