Hey Sus

Hey

Hey

I'm glad I caught you

me too I have miissed you like crazy

me too

I keep wanting to go next door

I can't believe we are supposed to hit Tennesse tomorrow

btw thank you for the build a bear it reminds me of you

wow

yvw

yeah, I know.

it's really mind blowing

I miss you all so much

I mean will be more than 2000 miles away from you

Don't remind me

I start crying every time I think about it

me too

I am counting down the days until I go back in June and Mom is thinking about extending our stay in Nashville by two weeks

I thought your mom was going to come help mine out when she has her surgery.

yeah

but I am talking about the rest of us

oh, ok

I will be coming early to, we have decided to fly Dad and Uncle Bill Louisa's husbands are going to take turns driving the Motor Home back, Aunt Kendra may even come as well, but she has to talk with her Doctor

wow

lol

I am glad Mom and I, Maddie and Danniella are flying out

me too

Daddy couldn't leave that early

but its going to be weird being away from him for a couple of weeks

I bet

I am wondering how Rick met your dad.

they've been friends for years

they went to school together

high school

oh, ok

we're in Little Rock, Arkensas tonight, btw

wow

I can't believe you are that far away

me either

I hate this more by the minute

I hate that you are moving so far away

I wish you were here w. me. I miss walking across the yard to your house

I know I wish I were too

late night chats, phone calls, sleep overs

me too

I miss all the little things

and knowing I will never get to do them again

I feel like I took it all for granted when I had it

yeah I know the feeling Sus believe me I know the feeling

I hate that feeling

Me too

I would have made better use of my time had I known it was going to end

but I didn't and now it's over

yeah me 2

I can't believe I am starting my life over, not for the first time, but the second

I know Sus you have been through so much change

how do you handle it?

I don't.

every time it happens, I go to pieces

this time, I'm not sure I am even going to try to put down roots and make all new friends

what's the use?

Well dont ever think our friendship wasnt worth it, no matter how far apart I will always consider you a friend

yeah, it is, but I don't know if I can go through this again

my very best friend

mine too

but I can't stand to lose everything again.

I mean, I might not have totally lost you, but things won't be the same.

and I've probably lost all my other friends there.

I haven't heard from anyone else since we left

Kia's still going through intesive therapy, but she said she is going to write to you, you will have to bare with her though

I understand Kia not writing, she has too much else on her plate

She misses you and she says she can't wait to see you again, she will probably be coming with us even if Aunt Kendra can't

so you may get to see her in a month too

wow, will she be ready by then?

yeah the doctors think travelling might help her some, and they know she can't be treated with kid gloves for the rest of her life

yeah, that's true

I'm not looking forward to going back into therapy once we are settled

I dont blame you I have physical therapy tomorrow morning

I have months left

I do too

But Mom has already arranged for me to have therapy in Nashville when I am there

So I wont be getting a break from that LOL

we will probably be room mates then

I hope so

I am outpatient remember?

yeah

I had forgotten

But maybe they will let me stay a night or two with you

Mom talked to her brother today. He's about to bust for us to get there

he sounds really nice, but I am still afraid of him not liking me

thats good

what if his family doesn't like me?

they will Sus

or what if he lets me down like almost every other man I've had in my life?

I dont think Dr Wright is like that

I'm trying not to expect too much

don't want to get myself too built up

I worry too that the Sanduskys won't like me too

Now I know they will

they are sweet and great

it just seems like just as sure as I think I can trust someone, they let me down in a big way.

I mean, you are the exception of course. Many of the people I know in Cali are.

but I guess certain patterns are hard to break

are you upset w. me?

you got really quiet on me

no of course not

sorry Danniella has a bad cold and Mom needed my help finding the Benadryl

oh

well, Emily is having sympathy pains for her, she came down w. a cold last night

thats when Danniella came down with it

wow

that's ironic

I heard the family who is moving into our old house has a girl about our age and one Daniella's age.

yeah

it seems weird

I might have competion in the best friend area

I dont think thats possible

I hope so

enough about me, what's going on w. you?

what are you doing in therapy?

tons of stuff

they are working on my balance and stuff

I do fine if I am in a chair with a back or in my wheelchair, but they want me to be able to sit up without having to lean on something

yeah

And of course they excercise my "little legs"

how do you feel about all of that?

it can get tiresome, but I know it has to be done

how are the twins?

Great they are growing in leaps and bounds

I bet

I hate I will miss seeing them grow up

Yeah I hate that too

I think all this is starting to break mom, she's crying in the bathroom right now

ugh I am sorry to hear that, I am praying for her

Yeshua hears and answers our prayers

as you know

I wouldnt be here if he didnt

yeah

I think we are going to stay over an extra day, so we can rest. I think everyone needs it

I'm starting to get pressure sores on my hips from sitting in the same place so much.

thats not good at all Sus

no, but I can't avoid it. I mean, I move as much as I can, but I am so limited

I know

I just can't move that much.

I hate it

I undaerstand that

I don't see how they will ever teach me to walk again

my legs are so withered

I know and I am sorry, my "little legs" are dead weight, but I am thankful that I have the use of my arms back

yeah, I am too

That was horrible being completely depedent on others

I know the feeling, I live it.

Well Sus, I should probably be letting you go it has to be close to midnight where you are at, but Mom says you can call tomorrow even though its our Sabbath celebration she wants to know that you arrived safely

well, we won't get there tomorrow, remember, I said we are staying over

lol okay I mean the next day

but Mom will probably call you tomorrow morning anyway.

maybe I will get to talk to you too.

seems like ages since I have heard your voice

that would be awesome

yeah

you must be exhausted

so I will talk to you tomorrow, please try and get some rest Sus, okay?

I'll try but I make no promises

okay, I will talk to you tomorrow then, try to relax and give your Mom my love, Mom wants me in bed early tonight, because as I said I have P.T in the morning

yeah, I need to get in a horizontal position, where my muscles can relax

as much as they do at least

okay, Yeshua Bless you and Good night

you too, good night