The hardest thing for me to write about is to write about how I came to Mamma Kendra. I am adopted of course, but in everyway Kendra is my real Mother, and I strive to be just like her, and now I am relieved that she has found my sister Jen, and now she is going to have the same advantages I had living with her.
I guess in some ways I can relate to Anuragini, because I know the feeling of not being wanted, my birth parents treated me like I was an animal they made a game out of pushing me out of my chair, watching me helpless on the floor, they were determined to humilate me,so it took me time to trust anyone but Mamma Kendra showered me in love, and because of that I believe I will be, I am a good Mother to my family.
The story before I came to Mamma Kendra is not an easy one to write, but I believe it is necessary. I was abused, physically and sexually from the time I was three, Mom had a string of boyfriends, and the truth is neither Jenna or I know who are real Father is, all we know is that we were probably born with disabilities, me with Spina Biffida, and Jenna was Cerebral Palsy, but I do not look at my disability as a negative thing, for one thing it has taught me patience and compassion and I will forever be grateful for that.
When I first came to live with Mamma Kendra I was extremly scared of everything and everyone, but now I know that she is here for me.
I was about nine when I came to live with Mamma Kendra, and at ten I had another setback, I had my first battle with Cancer, a battle I beat, thank God, but I had a reoccurence just about a year ago, and the good Lord help me through the treatments that made me so sick, but I am here praise the Lord, married to the man I love, with four beautiful children, two natural when I shouldn't have had children at all according to the doctors.
My birth Mother has tried to contact me several times, but I don't feel comfortable with that yet, I am seeing some of the same signs of abuse with Jenna that I saw with myself, and it hurts me to think of that. I am working on forgiving her, but it is going to take time.
To Be Continued...