I could have looked at it as my life ending, the accident certainly changed everything. I knew things had changed, but in some ways the changes were good. I was growing close to the Lord, I had felt so lost before, but the accident told me that I was paralyzed that I would never walk again, suddenly I was grounded and forced to think things over, when my cousin brought in a Bible I began delving into it, I changed, it was an over the night completely changing my life kind of change, but a slow kind of change. I was changing though and that was what mattered, and I was looking at things in a different light.
Life should not be about living a popularity contest and it certainly wasn't about college parties, I was opening my eyes to see that I should be living for Christ and trying to lead others to Christ.
There was a time when I went through adjusting, I mean my world had been turned upside down, I had to learn to do things differently, I was forced to take a breath and relearn the things I had taken for granted before, and I had to realize that my life wasnt going to be about jumping up and going. I would have to take more time, and in doing so I would be devoting my time to letting my thoughts go to the Lord. I wasnt going to run at cyber speed through life, I was going to cherish each day realizing tomorrow was not a promise.
I knew now that each day I opened my eyes to the morning light, I was experiencing a miracle, a miracle of the dawning of a new day, it made me wonder how I could ever not believe.
Like I said the accident changed things in a good way, it taught me to rethink and open my heart to Christ.
Loosing the abiliity to walk seemed minor in comparison of not giving my heart to Jesus. I cried out to the Lord to save me while I was laying in a hospital bed, facing a different kind of life, but the greatest change was going to come within in time. I was going to live for the Lord, and my heart overflowed with Joy whenever I sang his praises.
I am sure some thought I was in some sort of denial or that I was just trying to cope, but this was so much more than that. I was living for the Lord, and I was happy, happier than I had ever been which I am sure people thought was strange considering all that happened, but there was nothing that could compare to the joy of serving the Lord.
To Be Continued