“Honey I am sorry we can’t take a honeymoon right away.” Eric said after nearly everyone had gone home, and for the first time I was alone with Eric as my husband.
“Eric getting that monster is caught more than a honeymoon, besides I am just happy that we’re husband and wife.” I said.
“So Am I. I think everyone was in shock when they saw you walking down the aisle.”
“My upper body was doing all the work.”
“Honey don’t sale yourself short, you’ve come along way.”
“Thanks be to God, for letting you Becka, and Emily, as well as Mom be a part of my life.”
“I’m sorry your Dad didn’t show up.”
“I really wasn’t expecting him to.” I admitted. “But it would have been a nice gesture. I’m not going to dwell on it though, today was awesome, and now I am married to my prince charming.”
I was only going to have the rest of the weekend alone with Eric, and in the morning we would be attending Church so we wouldn’t truly be alone, but I knew we needed to be at Church, we needed to share our praises, and the happiness we were feeling as newly weds.
“I can’t believe we are finally man and wife.” Eric said, as he lifted me out of the wheelchair and we cuddled together on the couch, just being together, me melting in his arms felt right and I was thankful for that.
“The Lord has brought us along way in a short time hasn’t he.” I stated rather than questioned. In the past few months I had come farther than I let myself imagine after Emily told me there was a good chance I would never walk on my own again. She admitted that she didn’t know everything though, and the ultimate power was in Gods hands which made me even more thankful for having her for a doctor.
“Becka is going to be getting off work early on Monday, so I am going to send her here to check on you when she gets home. I wish I could take off early but I need to get this man caught, he needs to pay for these crimes, the body count is up to eight already.”
“I hate that, I wish I could do more to help.”
“You’re doing plenty by praying for this man to be caught.”
“I know prayer is important, but sometimes I miss being out on the field.”
“I know you do honey, but lets not focus on that, lets focus on our love for one another. I’m sorry I even brought it up.”
“It’s okay Eric, I don’t expect you to walk on egg shells around me when it comes to talking about work. In fact I really need to figure out what I am going to do, sitting at home all day just doesn’t seem appealing to me, at least not until we have a family.”
“Is that possible?” Eric asked. “I mean I don’t want us to do anything that is going to jeopardize your health.”
“Eric you worry to much, it’s fine, I have already talked to the doctors about it.”
“I want a family.” Eric said. “But even if you and I never had kids you and I would still be family.”
“I know and I love you for that, but I want a family too.”
I couldn’t believe Eric and I were already taking about a family when we hadn’t even been married twenty four hours yet, but it felt right talking about a family. I knew I wanted kids, maybe not a huge family, but three children had always seemed to be my dream family.
“I love you Heather.”
“I love you too Eric. The Lord blessed me with you for my husband.”
“And he blessed me with you for my wife.”
“You know we’re both beginning to sound mushy.” Eric said laughing.
“The mushier the better.” I teased back.
Lord I don’t know what I have done to deserve the blessings I have been receiving, but I thank you, and thank you for letting me look past my lifeless legs, to see that really matters is that my faith is alive, and that I don’t let anything or anyone compromise my beliefs. I love you Lord and I praise you.“I’m glad we are together.” Eric said, as I felt myself falling asleep in my arms.
“I am too and I believe this marriage is going to work.” I said, still having trouble moving past what my Dad did to my Mom.
“Honey of course its going to work, I’m not your Dad.”
“I know Eric, I am sorry, I just let what happened get the best of me something, but I know I need to give it over to God.”
“It’s okay honey.”
Lord let stop comparing what my Dad did to my Mom. I ‘m going to stop doing this Lord, but I am going to need your help. I love you Lord and I praise you.“I love you Eric, and I don’t think you are anything like my Father, you have been here for me through the rough spots, when I wanted to give up you gave me the courage to keep going.”
“I am glad I could help you in someway.”
“Honey you’ve helped me more than you know, just by loving me, and taking me as your wife.”
Lord thank you for Eric, thank you for showing me that I can overcome all of this. Thank you for showing me that I have joy in my heart despite what I have been through.