“The adoption is final! She’s officially ours.” I screamed out, forgetting we were at the Agency for a minute, but everyone was happy and celebrating with us, had I been able to, I would have jumped for joy.
“She’s ours.” Eric beamed. I knew from the moment the Lord placed Jillian on my heart that we had made the right choice, but in that moment, seeing Eric so happy and feeling the joy in myself, I knew that the Lord was going to bring us great joy in this decision. Jillian was ours, she finally had the family she deserved.
“It’s hard to believe, but the Lord does work miracles. I think the fact that I am here is proof enough of that.” I said, smiling, in that moment, the fact I was in a wheelchair did not matter., what mattered was the fact that the Lord had brought Jillian into our lives, and now she was our family, something good had come out of something terrible.
Lord this is such a gift, Jillian is ours! I can not contain my joy at this moment Lord!As soon as I found a spare moment, I called Emily, she was so much more than just a doctor, and I wanted to share my joy with her. I knew Emily would be happy for me, that he would celebrate with me. Emily had met Jillian several times, in fact Jillian was her doctor as well as mine now, I was relieved to find that she took on children too, and I wanted a doctor where Jillian would feel safe, I knew that Emily fit that bill.
“She’s ours!” I told Emily, calling her on her cell phone.
“That’s awesome! You and Eric deserve this, I am starting to see a change in her from the first time I saw her, she’s opening up more, and I know she loves you both.”
“Yes and now she’s ours.”
“How are you?” I asked Emily. She was happy for us, but I heard something in her voice that didn’t sound right to me.
“I’m getting ready to take a week or so off, I ended up developing pressure sores, they don’t want me using the prosthetics for awhile.”
“Emily why didn’t you tell me anything?”
“I didn’t want to worry you.”
“Is there anything Eric or I could do?”
“Just keep me company from time to time, I am used to being around people and I am sure to gostir crazy, even if it is only for a week.”
“I have a better idea, if it would work for you, I need someone to be home when Jillian comes home from school, do you think you could stay here if it isn’t to much for you?”
“I can do that, Jillian isn’t a hard child to watch, and I need to do something to feel productive. I just didn’t think it would be a good idea to go into the office for a week at least. But watching Jillian is nothing to an office full of patients, and unfortunately not all are as easy to deal with as you and Jillian.”
“That’s probably a good idea, I am sorry that you’re going through this.”
“I’ll be okay, and I am more than grateful for this, I do realize you are doing this as much for me as you are for yourself, well more so. You could have gotten anyone to watch Jillian, what about her normal babysitter?”
“She’s on vacation for awhile, visiting her Mom.”
“Well nevertheless I am grateful for what you are doing.”
‘Well I am glad to be able to do anything I can for you, you helped me get through the fact I was paralyzed, you helped to show me that life does indeed go on and now I am feeling the great joy in the Lord, and in all his blessings. I am a Mother now!”
“I know you have a beautiful eight year old daughter.” Emily said. I could hear the joy she shared for me in her voice.
Lord I am just amazed at the things you are doing. I have so many reasons to celebrate, but please Lord help Emily through this time, she is not used to being off her “feet” she is so independent, she hates to admit when she needs help, she is a doctor who feels she always needs to be working Lord use this time to draw her closer to you, and help Eric, Jillian and I to be able to help her in anyway we can.“I’m not used to being the one who needs help, I am used to being the one that is helping. Since the accident when I was seventeen I felt the need to prove myself. I had to get people to look past the fact that I used prosthetic legs, and I got so wrapped up in doing that, that I discovered I made myself uncomfortable without them, but now I have to face this.”
‘It’s okay Emily, no one expects you to be strong all the time.”
“I know, and I am really glad you are going to be letting me stay at your place.”
“It will be good for all of us, Eric is leaving tomorrow, he was called out of town, so I am going to be glad for the company, but tonight we want you to come to celebrate the fact that the adoption went through.”
“I’ll be there, I am not going to let myself stop living because I am a little uncomfortable.”