4:30 P.M CST Nashville TN
I am still here in the hospital, still trying to make sense of all that has going on, but first let me share you the good news, the babies, Natalies babies are all doing better than we expected, they were all so tiny, the smallest one barely a pound, that we feared, but the doctors say they are doing better than expected, we are placing our hopes for these precious little girls, my granddaughters (Wow that feels weird to say) in the hands of the Lord, which is where they belong.
Bill was killed in Jail, I guess the other inmates got wind of what he was in for, and they don't take to kindly to that. I am kind of confused as to what field, I just pray in his last moments he cried out to our Living Savior Christ.
The girls are staying with Missy while I am here in the hospital, they say the MD has progressed to my arms, and truthfully I am having a hard time dealing with that, I do not want to be dependent on others, but I am believing the Lord will get me through this, in the mean time I have had alot of why me moments, and I know that does not do me much good, but I guess thats normal. I think Satan is trying to see exactly what it takes to take our faith, I got news for HIM, I am going to continue to praise the Lord even in my weakness.
I am trying to be strong throughout all of this, but sometimes it is hard and I find myself fighting the tears, and the questions. I know its okay to cry, but I am trying to be strong about all of this.
I am getting through this, sometimes just barely, but I am getting through by the Grace of God.