July.23.08

11:14 P,M EST

It is but for the Grace of God that I am here, my life is a gift from the Father above, sometimes I find myself sinking into the pit of self pity, but when I look at my blessings, the things I have I realize how blessed I am.  I may not be able to walk, Beckers, a form of Muscular Dystrophy, that is found mainly in males has affected the muscles in my legs and my arms, and last year it began affecting my heart, and I ended up in the hospital with a heart attack, but the good Lord got me through that, and medications have kept my heart in good working order, so I know I am blessed, and I feel I got a lot of living to do.

I am trying to live the best life I can, and be the best Mother I can be to my daughters and my Son, there Father, the man who tormented us is now gone, killed in a prison yard fight, I did not want to see him go this way, but I can not say I am not relieved that he no longer poses a threat to us, I have no doubt had he been given the chance, he would have killed us all, I can not believe we led a lie so long.

Thank God that he protected me and thank God for my twin sister Naomi when times got really bad I found shelter with her family, and I still do.

My oldest daughter Natalie is now A Mother to triplets, they were born extremely premature, each weighing barely a pound, but despite that they are doing well, nearing six weeks now and they are almost up to three pounds, it's a miracle from God that's for sure.

I am blessed to have the life I have, and I thank God daily for that.  My life is a testimony to God's Amazing Grace.

Love In Christ

Louisa May