Once a month, only once a month do I get to fuck someone who looks like her, smells like her, tastes like her. At least I try to imagine making love to her ... I can't forget her. She's a part of me that just won't let go.
I get dressed hoping that this time she will be there and she will come to me and only me. I don't really want these other women but I need the release fucking them gives me. I want to feel something. I keep hoping that one of them will penetrate the ice around my heart. Some have come close and I make sure to cuddle with those special ones after they've cum for me.
I begin my monthly ritual by first pulling out my 7-1/2" dildo and black leather harness. I begin to rub oil into the leather harness making sure that it is soft and supple. I've had my shower. My blue jeans, black tight-fitting t-shirt, sports bra and leather boots are lying on the bed waiting for me. I don't bother with underwear ... I don't have my clothes on long enough to warrant wasting time with underwear.
I slip the dildo into the harness and then do up the harness tight ... I love this harness because of its jock style, having no buckles so it sits comfortably underneath my jeans. It has two leg straps which gives room in between the straps for other kinds of stimulation or penetration. I like how the straps accentuate my nice athletic ass. I get a lot of women coming up to me just to touch my ass ...
I'm dressed and standing in front of the mirror now. My jeans just come over my hips and my t-shirt to the top of my jeans ... I move my hand over my bulge adjusting it so that it's not quite so obvious. I like the look of surprise when the woman unzips my zipper and pulls out my cock. It turns me on every time to see the delight and anticipation in her eyes.
I walk into the Bathhouse and immediately am hit with all kinds of perfumes ... some are delightful and some just want to make me puke. I usually go for someone who has either no perfume on or very little perfume on. Sometimes I do enjoy finding it between her breasts or on her neck.
I get lots of looks ... some even call out my name ... not my real name ... I use a different name when I come in. I go by the name "Ryder" ... that suits my persona ... I'm only interested in being the top when I go to the Bathhouse ... I don't like being touched that much. I'm saving myself for the woman that took my heart. I'm not "Ryder" with her ... She gets to call me by my given name.
I'm feeling very hot and horny. I'm looking for a certain type tonight ... she's gotta be blond or dirty blond, medium length hair, petite, athletic and looking to get seriously fucked. I want someone new tonight ... someone I haven't been with yet.
I start to walk around and women I've been with before try to encourage me to their room ... I gently decline their offer with a quick kiss or hug. As I am declining the third offer, I see the woman walk by me and head to the pool area. Most of the women at the bathhouse are naked or almost naked. She has a lovely green see-through blouse that goes past her bum ... she's lovely ... she looks at me on her way past and winks ... I take that as an invitation. I move away from the admiring women and head towards the pool area. I am still fully dressed and will remain that way until I take the woman into a room ... I like my privacy.
The pool area is full of women ... most are naked. A lot of the women are in the pool and some are sitting or lying on the loungers. I head for the bar at the far end of the pool area and order a Beer ... I'll nurse that beer for awhile. I don't like to drink too much when I go to the bathhouse. I like to be fully alert when I make love to a woman.
I take a look around and spot her with a group of women laughing and talking. One of the women in the group calls me over to introduce me to the other women. I know all of them except the blond woman. "Ryder, this is Virginia".
I shake her hand and look into her eyes trying to avoid staring at her breasts through her open top. She doesn't show the same courtesy ... she looks me up and down hungrily ... focusing on my bulge.
She moves into me putting her hands on my chest. My temperature has just gone up a few notches ... I like a woman who knows what she wants. My arms go around her waist and I draw her tight into my body making sure that her crotch is tight into mine. I want her to know that I am just as interested as she is. My lips brush against her ear ... I ask her whether she would like something to drink ... she responds by bringing my head down and taking my lips with hers, moving them gently over mine. This was unexpected. I was expecting a hard kiss ... this was getting interesting.
She reaches for my beer and takes a drink making sure that I am watching her with the bottle. I am completely aroused and eager to find out what else she has up her sleeve. She moves away and heads towards one of the loungers. She doesn't turn around knowing that I am going to follow her.
I do but not until I take a good look at her first. She has an exquisite body. She's 5'2", petite, nice athletic body with a beautiful full ass ... she obviously spends some time on her body and it shows.
She's gotta be close to 40 but she doesn't look a day over 32 ... her confidence gives her age away.
You don't get that kind of confidence until you are well into your 30's. Confidence is a real turn on for me. She's reached the lounger and is looking at me ... waiting for me ... I smile at her and this time it reaches my eyes. She's managed to get my attention. I am definitely intrigued.
She slowly draws her blouse off making sure that I am paying attention. My eyes are drawn to her lovely breasts. I can't wait to touch them. She then lies down on her tummy. She hands me some lotion and tells me that she would like a massage first. She tells me that my touch will tell her a lot about me. I'm surprised. Normally I would be in the room by now with my mouth discovering a nipple or a clit.
I'm not quite sure what to do or say. I loved doing this with and for my lover. This was one of the ways that helped me connect with her before having sex. I had a hard time staying present during sex if we didn't spend some time before just touching. Did she intuitively know this?
I'm still thinking about it when she reaches for my hand and just kisses it. She looks into my eyes and says "it's okay, just spend some time touching me". I look at her and nod my head.
I kneel on the floor beside her and begin by putting lotion in my hands to warm it up. I start with her upper back and neck. Making sure to find the sore spots and gently work the muscles so that they loosen. I spend quite a bit of time on her mid and lower back.
Her legs spread for me when I start working on her bum ... I don't go in between but instead start massaging her legs one at a time. I can feel her heat as I slowly draw my hands up towards her bum. I work my way down both legs and touch her feet ... they are quite small. Very cute. I spend some time massaging the bottom of her feet.
I am very aroused by this time and have thoroughly enjoyed touching her. My hands are making slow circles on her lower back and bum. She rolls over and draws me to her. My legs are in between hers and my elbows are holding my weight above her. Her smile is amazing. She tells me that my touch is incredible. She's never been touched that way before. I will be allowed to fuck her and it had better be soon!
I kiss her quickly and lift myself off her. I take her hand and help her off the lounger handing her her blouse. We head off to the room that I have reserved for the evening.
The room is furnished with a walk-in shower, table and double bed. Virginia helps me strip off my clothes and the harness. She takes the dildo grabs my hand and leads me into the walk-in shower. The shower is supplied with every product imaginable.
She turns on the shower and tells me to turn around. I comply and not that reluctantly. I feel her hands move across my back with soap ... oh boy ... she spends some time on my back and bum. She moves her hands in between my legs telling me to spread them for her. My breathing picks up. I can feel her kneel down and wash my legs. Her hands move up my legs grabbing my ass in her strong hands. She spends some time washing my ass and crotch. I am flooding. She then turns me around and spends time on my front ... making sure to wash my breasts and move her way down my body. She only brushes my clit and never goes inside. Just teasing me. Lovely. Then it's my turn.
She's turned around for me. Instead of taking the soap I start to kiss her neck and back. Her head moves to the side so that I can get better access to her neck.
I reach for the soap and start to wash her back and bum. I get her to spread her legs for me. I let the water wash over her then I kneel and quickly stick my tongue up trying to reach her cunt.
I touch her with my tongue and her body arches letting me get closer. I feel her reach for me ... "please fuck me now ... I need you to fuck me right now".
She passes me the dildo and I gently push it into her ... slowly moving it in and out but not all the way. While my hand is busy with the dildo, my mouth is busy kissing and nipping her lovely ass ... I find her puckered asshole and start to run my tongue back and forth across it ... I hear moaning and feel her push into my face. I'm going deeper with the dildo but still not all the way in ... she's trying to get me to go deeper and faster ... not quite yet ... I push my tongue into her and I hear her scream. I don't stop until I feel her move away.
She turns around and moves in tightly to my body. Her head resting against my neck. We rest like this for a bit. I'm sure she can hear my heartbeat. She turns off the water and takes my hand again and leads me out of the shower into the bedroom.
I start looking for my clothes ... she grabs my hand and leads me over to the bed. I begin to feel uncomfortable. She says that it's my turn now and she wants to make love to me. I shake my head.
"I don't need that from you," I say. "I've really enjoyed myself. That was enough for me."