Well, I done did it ...
I went down front to the altar at church on Wednesday and asked Christ into my heart.
I figured that I had enough of running away from God; there was no way on His good, green earth that I was gonna win, so I decided to surrender myself to Him and give him my life.
I felt like the weight of the world lifted off my shoulders. I felt a sense of peace and relief; I knew without a shadow of a doubt that He now lived inside of me (and would do so from this moment on).
My wife, who was right by my side as I repented and surrendered, was bawling. I was bawling. Even the pastor was bawling as he prayed over me.
It was wonderful! :)
I am no longer the God-hater. I am now a God-lover. Therefore, there is no more of my story to tell unless God sees to it. I now have peace and joy inside of my (formerly) hardened heart; I have hope and a future. My name is now written in the "Lamb's Book of Life"; I will be going to Heaven to be with God, Jesus, and all the rest of the Bible people forever and ever! My life will be much better than I will ever imagine it will be.
Suddenly, I feel that I owe people an apology, the people I hurt or was nasty to. I know this much: I owed God the biggest apology in the world. I already made up with God (bawled like a baby the whole time). Now it is time to make amends with the people I hurt with my nasty nature (including my wife; she probably got it the worst from me).
Oh, and remember that job interview at the car parts place? I GOT the job!! I started last week, and I LOVE it!! It feels so good to be a productive part of society and to be making my own money (I get my first paycheck this Friday)! God is blessing me already, even though I have only been a "Christian" since this past Wednesday (four days)!
And get this: I am going to church again this morning! I suddenly feel I have to go! Who would have ever thought it was possible???
God is good, and I am so glad that I answered when Jesus came knocking at my heart! I feel at peace, and suddenly, life is much brighter for me!!
To be continued (?).