I don't know if I can take any more drama in my life .... my life is pretty dramatic enough now as it is, and I don't know what to do!
Well-meaning friends keep telling me to pray about it. Well, that's good, but I have stopped believing in God. If God is who He says He is, then why isn't He doing anything to stop the problems that are plaguing this world: famine, natural disasters, wars, violence, etc?
Besides worrying about what's going on in our world, I have to worry about things going on in my own life. My daddy leaving my mom and my brothers and sisters alone. Had a "mid-life" crisis; falling in love with a woman that could be my oldest sister. Twenty years younger than he is. She already has a little kid by a previous man. My kid brother doing drugs and not knowing what he is doing or where he is for days at a time. Dealing with a little sister who has disabilities and knowing that she cannot take care of herself.
Now I find out that we might be losing our house. Rent's gone up and mom can't afford it, especially since she took a pay cut at her job (and less hours).
If that is to happen, then where would we end up?? I don't want to end up in a homeless shelter!!
I tell you, right now my life is one big joke waiting to explode in my face! It's as if I'm skating on thin ice, and there's nothing, absolutely nothing, that I can do to stop things from happening the way they are!