Feeling sorry for yourself is not going to change anything. It certainly is not going to give me the use of my legs back, so why should I feel sorry for myself? I am here and I am able to tell my story, so instead of dwelling on the what if's I think I am better off to focus on the what is.
I am grateful to be here and though I can no longer walk there is still plenty I can do, Now don't get me wrong I am not some kind of superwoman who never grieves over her loss, because I do grieve, but I am here and I am grateful for that. There is a difference between grieving and dwelling. Sometimes the difference can seem like a fine line but it is there.
I do enjoy my life though, even from this chair I can enjoy a full life. Nothing has to stop me or slow me down much. Sure I have my off days, after all I am only human, but the good seem to out number the bad now and I am so grateful for that.
I am so grateful for alot of things.
I know that God let me live through the accident for a reason. If he had wanted me to die, I would have died, but I am very much alive, and this chair does not change that. The fact that I can no longer walk does not mean that I am less alive, it simply means I can not walk, but I know one day in Heaven I will.
To Be Continued....