Chapter Twenty Three:
“I really wish this would end. That we could stop running soon.” Anna told Sophia and I after everyone else had went to bed. Even Jacob was asleep exhausted from the events of the past few days, but my sisters and I were to keyed up to sleep
“I do too.” I admitted. “I try to be strong for the kids, but this is starting to wear on me. I know I got to do what is right though. We are going to have to ride this out, I can’t risk putting the kids in danger, and we have seen more than our share of danger.”
“Yeah we have, but God has always got us through, he will continue to do so.” Sophia said, offering Anna and I the encouragement we needed. Anna especially, because she was just getting back to the business of living after nearly letting the depression from being shot and paralyzed destroy her reason for being. Thankfully our prayers were answer and Anna was getting stronger emotionally. We were all grateful for that, and I knew in time she would regain her independence back. She still had her arms as I had mine, and I knew from experience you could live a full life from a chair. I may not have believed that after I was first shot, but I had lived it, and I knew that anything was possible if you lived for the Lord. I knew the same was true for anyone.
“I really do not think we could have made it a day through this mess without the Lord.” Anna admitted. It was good to hear Anna talking about the Lord again. For a while it was like she had given up on faith all together.
“I know I couldn’t have, I don’t think I would have made it out of the hospital alive, after the bullet lodged in my brain.” Sophia said. I could see she was still fighting back tears, because that had caused her to lose so much of Jelena’s childhood. In a way I believe she felt guilty for what happened, and it had been hard for Jelena at first, but now she was older, she had her Mom back and she understood more.
We were interrupted in the middle of our conversation by Jasmines cries, another nightmare probably about her Grandfather kidnapping her. Or pain in her leg, since it had been broken trying to get away from her Grandfather she dealt with a lot of pain if the weather got to cold, but she was a strong young girl and she going to get through this. She may not have been born a Alexei but she was one now, and she was a strong little girl. I was so grateful we had Jasmine in our lives. Now our family felt complete, not that it wasn’t before, but we had felt such a calling to adopt this little girl. Our prayers had been answered just as they had been for Vania all those years earlier.
After we calmed Jasmine down, my sisters and I started talking and sharing some sister time. We needed to talk, we needed to pray and read the word. We needed to get closer to the Lord especially when we were feeling like this. I knew that the Lord had not left us, but I had to admit sometimes it felt that way. That was my own doings though and I understood that.
For some reason that evening I was led to read 1st Thessalonians 4:
1 Thessalonians 4
Living to Please God
1 As for other matters, brothers and sisters, we instructed you how to live in order to please God, as in fact you are living. Now we ask you and urge you in the Lord Jesus to do this more and more. 2 For you know what instructions we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus.
3 It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should learn to control your own body[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, 5 not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God; 6 and that in this matter no one should wrong or take advantage of a brother or sister.[b] The Lord will punish all those who commit such sins, as we told you and warned you before. 7 For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8 Therefore, anyone who rejects this instruction does not reject a human being but God, the very God who gives you his Holy Spirit.
9 Now about your love for one another we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. 10 And in fact, you do love all of God’s family throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers and sisters, to do so more and more, 11 and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands, just as we told you, 12 so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.
Believers Who Have Died
13 Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. 14 For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. 15 According to the Lord’s word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. 16 For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17 After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. 18 Therefore encourage one another with these words.
Lord help us to live you, and help us to lead our children by example. Get us out of this mess our Father created, and get us back to living. I am supposed to retire soon Lord, and I want that, because I want to be able to spend time with my family. And Lord please keep Vania safe, I know she is not going into the academy lightly, she has prayed about this, and knows this is her place. I am proud of her Lord, but the fact is I am scared too. There are dangers, but I guess we are used to dangerous situations by now. Vania has never been one to let fear slow her down, and I am grateful for that because it has gotten her through so much in life.
“Thank you Isha, for staying up with us and talking to us. We have to do this more often, but not out of fear, We just need to spend more sister time together. We may live in the same small cabin, but it seems we are always apart.”
“I know Sophia, we are going in different direction and doing our own thing, or we are just trying to run from our Father, he may not be here with us, but he sure knows how to get us. I think maybe we are letting him have too much power over our lives.”
“I think your right about that.” Anna admitted. “He does not deserve to have this hold over us anymore. We are no longer little girls believing his bold face lies, we know the truth, and though it can be painful the truth can set you free. At least we are not in the dark anymore.”