Shabbat Shalom:

I am sorry that it has been so long since i have last written.  I have not been in the shape to right until today.

I ended up with another infection that went into my bloodstream and very nearly killed me, but I am here by the Grace of God.

I am in Arizona, at the same hospital Susie is at, but I am recovering, which is good, but I am still not a hundred percent.

At times I wonder why I was cursed with this pain insentivity disorder.  Not feeling pain is not something that is a good thing, not when you end up getting hurt and not knowing it and then you end up with an infection that could very easily kill you.

I am glad I am alive though, glad that I beat this thing once again, and didnt lose another limb in the process.

I haven't even had the courage to tell Johnny about my latest bout in the hospital and I have asked my parents not to tell him, because he is not doing so hot himself.

The reality of our conditions can be terrifying but I am not going to give up and I know Johnny won't.

The good news is I will be released in the next few days or so, and will be able to go back to Tenesse for the fourth I will just have to be very careful, and I will be.

And in a few months Johnny and I will be married, I am going to do my best to stay in the best health possible.

Lord no more hospital stays or injuries please, for Johnny or I.

I must go now, I will write more later.

Rebekka Rachel~