I have played the what if game from the moment I got in that car knowing he was drunk and woke up a few days later in a hospital bed, paralyzed from the neck down.

At sixteen my life was destroyed and I had no one to blame but myself.

I was the one who got in the car smelling the alchol on his breath knowing he shouldnt be driving, but something about sixteen and raging hormones can make a girl stupid, at least it did me.

I should have known better, if I had listened to the common sense that said stay away from him and his drunken self that night, I would not be sitting in a chair paralyzed from the neck down.

Needing help with the little things.

I wanted independence and look what it gave me, a lifetime sentence of depending on others.

Barring a miracle I will be in this chair.

Paralyzed from the neck down.

I have limited use of my arms, and that with months and months of gruelling physical therapy, but I still need help for the most personal of things.

Humilating at times yes, but its the price I have to pay for a stupid decision I make.

So I am here telling my story, because I want to prevent others from making the mistake I made.

The mistake that nearly cost me my life.

To Be Continued