If I could just fall into a hole and disappear or just avoid going to school altogether, I would be a thousand timse happier ...
My name is Debbie. I am fourteen years old. I just entered the egigth grade and already I hate it. Seems that all I do anymore is cry or try to hide from the papular kids who find it hilarious to tease me to the point of tears.
Every day I go home crying. My dad and my mom tell me to buck up and not let the teasing get to me, but they don't have to go to school or face the bad kids. I do, every day, and it's enough to make me want to kill myself.
I didn't ask to be born with a crooked leg or walk with crutches! I know I should be grateful that I CAN walk at all, but I fall a lot and the kids call me horrible names, names that aren't worth repeating here!
Or worse the popular kids kick me or pull my hair when I am on the ground. Some have even gone as far as spitting on me or taking my glasses so I can't see. I'm surprised they haven't broken them, but I'm now gonna have to have mom take me to the eye doctor's, so she can fix my glasses. They are terribly crooked, just like my leg!
In addition to my crooked leg and my glasses, I am fat. Very fat. I have always been fat. No died I have ever tried has worked. Maybe some did for a while, but then I ended up gaining back all the weight I lost (and then some). I'm as big as ever and I can't afford nice clothes. All the nice clothes aren't made for larger people, so I have to wear the shapeless shirts, baggy polyester pants, or stuff that has big, flowery print on them, which only makes me look even fatter.
It's a losing battle.
Some of the names I've been called include "Four Eyes", "Blindy-Girl", "Petunia" (as in Porky-the-Pig's girlfriend), "El Blimpo", "Tubby", "Dumb Debbie", "Retarded", "Gimpy-Leg", "Cripple", "Ugly", or "Loser" ... and that's just for starters.
Seems every day they come up with new names for me. It's depressing.
I wish mom or dad could homeschool me, but they say nothing doing: I need to be with kids my age. Well, that may all be in good, but as I said, all the kids do is tease me and make me feel worthless, more than what I already do! If I don't quit being teased, I just might end up doing something totally drastic, and I won't be responsible for my actions! Anything has got to be better than the hell I face day in and day out at school!!
~To be continued.~