Once I got passed the pity party and listen to what my Mother was saying I came to the realization that she was right. I did not have to let this wheelchair change who I was on the inside. The accident had left me unable to walk it had not taken away who I was. The only person who could let that happen was me.
I found myself leaning more and more onto my own faith and my Moms words and kindness and love. She wanted what was best for me and I understood that now, maybe in a way I had not before the accident.
I knew letting myself wallow in self pity was not going to solve anything so I had to let myself get back to life. I could live a good life despite the chair. I could do the things I had dreamed of doing.
I finally allowed myself to face the reality that I may never walk again, but that did not have to mean my life was over. I finally came to grips with what happened to me. I had my time to grieve over all I had lost, but I would not go on grieving forever. Perhaps a small part of me would but I had to live to. I had to embrace life.
"Katrina God never said life was always going to be easy, what he did say was that if we leaned on him he would help us through the rough spots."
I let Mom's words ring in my ears, listening to them really listening to them and taking the time to understand what they meant.
"When Life gives you Lemon's sweetie, you can either let it turn you bitter or you can make Lemondade." Mom's advise once again played in my ears. I knew I did not want to become someone bitter who had the whole why me attitude I needed something much more than that out of life.
To Be Continued...