The butterflies were beginning to subside. I was going to be okay. I was going to be able to give this speech. This was my last big moment of high school. Actually this was my last moment of high school to begin with. We would meet again in five, ten, maybe fifteen years. Talking about our successes, sharing pictures of our children. Wondering who did what, but this was going to be a moment none of us would ever forget. Something as big as graduation tends to stick with you.
For a second I let my mind wander back to two summers before. The summer everything changed. The summer that should have been the scent of Peaches and Boiled Peanuts. Myra had always talked about boiled peanuts and how good they were. I was going to hold her to that trip to Georgia to see the beautiful country sides, to taste the sountern cooking.
Just thinking about it I could almost smell peanuts boiling. Myra said it smelled a lot like Peanut butter. I knew so many with peanut allergies, thankfully I wasn’t one of them. I loved Peanut butter.
Funny the thoughts that went through your mind when you were nervous. The thoughts that went through my mind at least. It seemed they had no connection to anything in the moment, but I guess your mind does have a way of working in crazy ways. Especially when your nervous. I was certainly nervous. But I was going to be okay.
I had the speech in my hands and something up my sleeves.
A surprise of sorts, for my family, for my friends.
Under my long dress and graduation robe, I was wearing a pair of braces, Not even my Mom knew what was up my sleeve. I was going to walk.
A few awkward steps, leaning heavily on my best friend, but I was going to walk the few feet from my seat to the podium.
I still had a long way to go, but to borrow a quote a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. It seemed fitting that it should be here, that I take my first steps.
I leaned on my best friend because I needed someone to steady me. I still had very limited movement and little feeling below my waist, but what seems impossible with the world becomes possible with God.
I took those steps, with my best friend by my side, Christ in my heart, and everyone in the Stadium applaused. Without saying a word I had given my speech. With God the impossible becomes possible,
I watched as many people began crying, including my Mother, Aunt Sheila and my best friend. Even Chad watched in awe. I had managed to keep this from everyone but Myra, because I needed my best friends help. I felt it was fitting I lean on her, because the Lord had used her to give me the strength I needed.
Lord thank you for allowing me to show them my testimony, not just tell them. With you Lord even the impossible becomes possible, I want to show my friends and loved ones that and you have given me that. Thank you.
Perhaps I had not just run a raise, but maybe in a sense I had. And I had certainly showed everyone that with God anything is possible. I had done so without saying a word, simply taking a few awkward, baby like steps, that I was never supposed to take. I knew I wouldn’t be putting my chair away anytime soon, I had a ways to go, but I had walked. God had given me that, after I had stopped trying to take control and let him once again have the control.
“Siennna I am so proud of you, How did you manage keeping that from everyone?”
“Not everyone Mom, My knew, but I wanted it to be a surprise. I know I have a long way to go, but look how far I have come. I know I owe it all to the wonderful Lord, and the people he placed in my life.”
“I think you gave everyone the best Graduation gift possible. Everyone was in tears.”
“I know Mom. I didn’t mean to make everyone cry, but I need to go catch up with Chad. “
“Alright you Chad, and Myra have fun tonight.”
“We will.” I said. We were going to the Sober Grad party and were having every intention of enjoying ourselves.
“Good Sienna. We will have a family celebartion tomorrow, but I want you to go and have fun.”
“Thank you Mom. I love you.”
“Love you too Sienna, and I am proud of you.”
“I am proud of you too Mom, and tell Kenny thank you for coming. I hope he asks to marry you soon.” I told Mom as I made my way to my car. Myra was riding with me, Chad had gone in his own car. But we were all going to meet up and hang out at the party. It was nice to be able to go to a party without feeling pressured about having a drink of alchol or getting some sorty of high.
“Sienna I think you succeeded in surprising everyone. Heck even I was crying and I was in on the surprise.”
“It’s funny how God works isn’t it. And amazing, more amazing than anything.”
“Thank you for agreeing to ride along with me. I didn’t want to drive alone. I don’t always like the quiet.”
“I know Sienna, and it’s no problem. Your cars easier for you anyway. And as long as I get where I am going I don’t mind.”
“My, you are a good friend, I hope you know that.”
“Sienna you are too. “