Star’s Blog/Plenty Of Reason to Praise
I have been given a whole new outlook a whole new lease on life so to speak. The Lord has really showed me that he continues to work through me and I am grateful that I am finally able to have a little relief. The monster is not scaring me like he used to. I can’t let him control me like that I know that. I have reclaimed the power to get on with my life, and not let him interfere.
I kind of feel sorry for him he seems only to live to make life miserable for me. It shows that he really does not have a life of his own. How could a father, spend so much time wanting to do nothing but destroying you?
Things have calmed down some yes, but that does not mean we are laying our guard down any. We trust in the Lord of course, but we know too that he wants us to be active in our defense. I know that the Lord does not want us to take silly chances and I do not plan on doing that. I am going to do everything in my power to give it to the Lord though.
I have got a few threatening emails since the last time I blogged but they are not stopping me. I am going to continue speaking against abuse of any kind. We need to show people that abuse is never okay, no matter how many excuses a person makes. No one deserves to beat senseless especially a child, and I am not going to give up on helping others see that. I may have to pay, but I know that God gives me the strength to get through what will come my way.
A burden has been lifted from me since I have given things over to the Lord. I no longer have to feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders, and that is definitely a freeing feeling. I feel so much better, so much lighter now and I am so grateful for that.
The good Lord has blessed me and I know that. I have a wonderful family, a sister I am very close to, and I was freed from that hell in Afghanistan I endured as a child at the hands of my Father. The fact that I am here is proof enough of God’s existence. I have an amazing testimony and I am blessed by the chance to tell my story, to share my testimony.
I know now the Lord had a reason for keeping me here, for letting me endure all I have endured and come out stronger in the end. I gave my Father the last laugh simply by surviving the Hell I have been through, and coming out on the top. I know that the gratitude for that goes to the Lord, because he allowed me to survive.
My parents and my sister have helped me grow stronger as well too, and I know that too is a gift from the Lord. I am so blessed in the Lord I do not know where to begin and where to end, but hey that’s a good feeling.
I am praying about writing a book about what I have been through, actually Hope and I are going to write it together, because that is the way I want it. I will of course write about what happened before I came to America, before I became a Baxter, but she is going to help me to write about the transformation, a transformation that could have only come from the Lord. I know writing about what happened and going back to that place is not going to be easy. I think that this is something I must do though, and I have every intention on telling my story. Perhaps someday someone who needs it will pick up my book.
The good Lord has given me a gift, many gifts actually and I plan on doing my best to use them for his glory. I know I am not perfect and I will fall short from time to time, but the good Lord is going to use me, as long as I allow him to, and I plan on doing just that. I plan on using my gifts for his glory.
I am so glad that I have the family I have, and the support I have, because I could not have gotten though this without them. I am thankful that the FBI is closer to finding their man, my father, and yes I want them to find him and make him pay for what he does, but I am no longer consumed with the need to feel that my life will not be good if I don’t see justice right away, because I know Justice will be served.
The Lord has blessed me with a new found sense of peace, and I am so grateful for that. I am grateful to know that no matter what happens on this earth he will have to face his punishment on judgment day we will all be held accountable for what we do then, but the beautiful thing is if we accept the Lord into our lives we are given a clean slate, we are washed clean. I am so blessed by all of this, and I am so grateful for the Lord. I just want to sing his praises.
I realize I am repeating myself here, but I am excited that I am giving my heart to Jesus. I am thankful that I have had so much good in my life, that I have the Lord in my life. I want to sing his praises night and day, and I want to show others that there is hope in the Lord. Anyway I know I am rambling so I am going to close this blog, until next time this is Star.