I was hoping that doctors would figure out what is exactly going on with me, but I couldn't be more wrong: I continue to lose weight.
I weigh maybe 115 pounds and the pounds continue to melt off. Seems that I have been losing one or two pounds just about every day. If this keeps up, I will totally disappear into a sea of nothingness ....
I have had every test known to man. Have been tested for anorexia nervosa. Bulemia. Cancer. Diabetes. Even AIDS. All have come back "inconclusive" or "negative", which has my doctors and specialists (not to mention, family) stumped, totally stumped.
I don't know what is going to happen to me, but it's like my metabolism has suddenly gone into a permanent state of overdrive. It's like I can't seem to stop losing weight. I have had to go through several wardrobe changes, just to find clothes that fit me without hanging off of me like rags. I look like I've been starved, or worse, a honest-to-god concentration camp victim.
I look like a human skeleton. And the sight of my stick thin limbs, gaunt frame, dull, lifeless hair, and sunken face terrifies me to no end.
I don't know what is going to happen, but if soemthing isn't discovered as to what is causing this abnormal weight loss soon, I just might go mad ....
~To be continued.~