“Sienna did you get the English assignment done?” Miranda asked. The assignment was a major one, the last big assignment in English class for their senior year.
“Yeah I got it done. It’s a miracle I did between dance classes and everything else.”
“Sienna I honestly don’t know how you are doing it. If I were the one who just got out of the hospital for months, the one that was told I would never walk again. I would not be doing everything you are doing. I hope you know you are truly an inspiration.”
“But for the Grace of God there go I.”
Sienna had made a promise to herself during those early days in the hospital, after the shock of being told she would never walk again wore off, and she no longer felt like she had the wind knocked out of her.
It feels good to be back home back to life. She looked around her room, as she listened to Miranda talk about school and who was going to prom with whom. She had forgotten about Senior prom and prayed someone would take her. The fact that she was in a chair now did not have to mean she couldn’t go. Sienna had liked Chad for a long time, and was pretty sure he felt the same way, but neither of them had the courage to go to anything beyond friendship.
I hope Chad sees I am still the same person. The only difference is that I can no longer walk, but that does not stop me from living, from doing things for myself. I hope he knows that my faith remains the same, and that I really like him a lot.
“HELLO Sienna? Are you still their or did you fall asleep.”
“No sorry, I was just thinking about Chad.”
“I wish you would find the courage to ask him out.”
“So do I Miranda.”
“You can overcome a life changing accident, but you freeze up when you want to ask a guy out.”
“I know Miranda it doesn’t make much sense to me either.”
As Sienna hung her portable phone up, by the black charger next to her bed, she had a television, and a laptop computer which she used in her room and in the Victorian style desk was her digital camera, in her favorite color purple, and the journals she kept. Sienna loved mixture of modern and old fashion in her room because they both fit her. Many times Sienna had felt like an old soul in a young body.
Lord give me the courage to say what I need to Chad, let him see that I am the same person. I want to go to the prom with him, but if that cannot happen please let me deal with that.
Sienna felt a little selfish for praying that prayer. Of course she understood there was more important things than Proms, how could she not, after all that she had just lived through. She knew too though that the Lord heard her prayers, and she needed to pray. Chad meant a lot to her and she would be blessed if she got to go to the prom.
Miranda had insisted several days ago, that they go look for prom dresses, and Sienna found the perfect dress, a lavender dress with spaghetti straps, it went to her knees if she got it this would be the first thing she wore that showed her legs outside of the dance studio since the accident.
Lord I know you are blessing me and that you are going to get me through this, that I really should not ask you for more, but I keep asking and you keep blessing. I love you Lord and I praise you. I ask that you allow my life to become a witness of your love to others. I know I am not perfect, but you love me even in my imperfections Lord and I thank you for that.
Laying on her bed, Sienna opened up her Leather Bible that had been a gift from her Grandmother when Sienna had been baptized at the age of thirteen. She was saved as a little girl, but had not been ready for baptism right away, due to her fear of the water as a little girl, but the day Sienna turned thirteen she knew it was time to be baptized.
She opened her Bible up to Romans 8 and let the words pour over her soul:
Life Through the Spirit
1 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death. 3 For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh,[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering.[c] And so he condemned sin in the flesh, 4 in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
5 Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. 6 The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. 7 The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. 8 Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.
9 You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ. 10 But if Christ is in you, then even though your body is subject to death because of sin, the Spirit gives life[d] because of righteousness. 11 And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of[e] his Spirit who lives in you.
12 Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. 13 For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live.
14 For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. 15 The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship.[f] And by him we cry, “Abba,[g] Father.” 16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
Present Suffering and Future Glory
18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19 For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. 20 For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21 that[h] the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.
22 We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[i] have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
More Than Conquerors
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[j]
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
As she lay there Sienna let the words speak to her, and began silently thanking the Lord once again for his gift, she had been doing a lot of asking, but sometimes forgot to thank him. She hated to admit that, but Sienna was not a perfect Christian, and she was sure no one was, not if they were honest with themselves, the awesome thing though was that despite the fact that she was not perfect the good Lord loved her.
How can people look around them Lord, and see all you have done, all the beauty in this world and not believe in you. I see you in every sunset,, sunrise and rainbow because I know you created them and so much more.