Sienna felt as if a swarm of butterflies was floating in her stomach.
Nervous was an understatement, but the day was finally here.
She was going to prom, with her dream date.
God was good, and she knew that.
Thank you Lord, just don’t let me mess this up, with my nervousness. I don’t want to make a total fool of myself. I do not want Chad to think I am some kind of freak or something.
“Sienna it’s going to be okay, if Chad did not like you, he would not have asked you.”
“I know Miranda, I am just so afraid of doing something or saying something wrong, and he can’t find out about before.”
“Sienna he is not going to find out unless you tell him, and I don’t think that’s going to happen, so please calm down. I will never be able to fix your hair if you don’t.”
“I know I am so sorry.”
“It’s okay Sienna, I just want things to go good for you. I want you to see that everything is going to be okay, but if you keep getting wrapped up in everything you think you can mess up, you are not going to be able to have a good time.”
“I know Miranda, you’re right, but I can’t help but think about all the things that can go wrong.”
“Sienna that’s not like you, you are the eternal optimist remember.”
“Wish I felt that way right now.”
“So do I.”
“You’re right though, I am going to have to pull it together.”
Lord help me get it together. I know everything is going to be okay, and I know Miranda is right, I usually am much more positive than this, but right now the memories are starting to come back and I am having trouble letting them go. I know I will never forget about what’s happened to me in the past. I can’t let this stop me from having a good time though, Senior Prom only happens once Lord, so give me the strength to simply enjoy it/
Sienna grew quiet as Miranda fixed her hair. Lost in her thoughts once again, this time it was not fear that was driving her thoughts though, but excitement. The Lord had calmed her heart and she was more than thankful for that, and more than thankful that she was going to have a wonderful night. Sienna was sure of that now, the Lord wanted that for her and she wanted it for herself.
Thank you Lord for getting me this far, during those months I was in the hospital I did not dream I would be going to the prom with the boy I loved. I thought he would run away when he found out I would never walk again, but I misjudged him, and I ask for your forgiveness for that. I am indeed blessed, and I thank you Lord for the wonderful blessings you have given me.
“Feeling better now?” Miranda asked, motioning Sienna to turn around and look in the mirror.
“I am, and starting to feel like a princess in those fairytale books we read as kids.”
“I know what you mean.”
“You look amazing too.”
“Thank you Sienna, but do you think you could help me with my hair now.”
“I would be happy too.”
It was nice focusing on normal exciting things, not things that tore at her heart and gave her nightmares, but positive things, things that gave her hope. Sienna felt like she was slowly being lifted out of a fog, and she could finally breathe again.
“You look amazing, I think I am going to be the luckiest guy at the prom tonight.” Chad said to Sienna. “I am glad I asked you, when I did, someone else would have if I hadn’t, and then my night would have been ruined.”
Sienna smiled at the compliment, feeling like a princess. She realized that was the longest conversation her and Chad had probably had in a long time.
Why did it take us so long to realize that our feelings for one another were mutual Lord?
“You look great too, I feel pretty darn blessed myself.” Sienna said, wheeling herself to the waiting Limo, thankful that Chad understood her need for independence, her need to do things for herself, but tonight, tonight was about being together, and letting go of more than the bullet that paralyzed her, it was about letting go of something much darker than that.
“Thank you Sienna. You really do look amazing.”
“So do you Chad. I can’t believe Senior Prom is finally here.”
“And graduation is just around the corner.”
“I know, it’s scary to think about isn’t it?”
“Yes it is? Still planning on going away to college?” Chad asked.
“No I want to be closer to home, the past year has made me realize how important family is. I really don’t want to leave Mom and Kelsea.”
“We have a couple of good college nearby, and with your grades I know you could get in.”
“I’ve been accepted to one about half an hour from here. I am looking forward to college.”
“What do you plan on studying?”
“I am thinking either Child Psychology, or journalism.”
“You would do great at either one.”
Sitting in the limo with her best friend, her date, and Chad, Sienna felt so blessed. She closed her eyes, letting the words of Psalm 33 play through her mind.
1 Sing joyfully to the LORD, you righteous;
it is fitting for the upright to praise him.
2 Praise the LORD with the harp;
make music to him on the ten-stringed lyre.
3 Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully, and shout for joy.
4 For the word of the LORD is right and true ;
he is faithful in all he does.
5 The LORD loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of his unfailing love.
6 By the word of the LORD the heavens were made,
their starry host by the breath of his mouth.
7 He gathers the waters of the sea into jars[a];
he puts the deep into storehouses.
8 Let all the earth fear the LORD;
let all the people of the world revere him.
9 For he spoke, and it came to be;
he commanded, and it stood firm.
10 The LORD foils the plans of the nations;
he thwarts the purposes of the peoples.
11 But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever,
the purposes of his heart through all generations.
12 Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD,
the people he chose for his inheritance.
13 From heaven the LORD looks down
and sees all mankind;
14 from his dwelling place he watches
all who live on earth—
15 he who forms the hearts of all,
who considers everything they do.
16 No king is saved by the size of his army;
no warrior escapes by his great strength.
17 A horse is a vain hope for deliverance;
despite all its great strength it cannot save.
18 But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,
19 to deliver them from death
and keep them alive in famine.
20 We wait in hope for the LORD;
he is our help and our shield.
21 In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in his holy name.
22 May your unfailing love be with us, LORD,
even as we put our hope in you.
“Are you okay Sienna?” Chad asked.
“I am great, thank you Sienna, I tend to get lost in thought sometimes.”
“I do that too, you don’t have to apologize.”
“Thank you for asking me Chad. I did not know if you would or not, but I didn’t want to go with anyone else but you. I have liked you for a long time.”
“I’ve felt the same way I have just been too afraid to say anything.”
“I know that feeling.” Chad said. “I have been wanting to ask you out for a while, but I don’t know why I always thought you would say no.”
“No you’re great Chad, why would I say no. I was afraid you would think I had changed after the accident.”
“Sienna I am not that low, I know the chair doesn’t change who you are.”
“I’m sorry I felt that way.”
“It’s okay, you’re only being honest with me and I appreciate that.”
“Thank you for understanding Chad. I guess I am afraid sometimes of what people will think.”
“Sienna the fact that you were shot doesn’t change how I feel about you.”
At least he doesn’t know the other secret Lord, maybe someday I will have the courage to tell him about the darkness, about what happened to me before, but right now I just want to enjoy the closeness, and I want to dance close to him. I may be in a chair Lord, but I can still move. I can still dance, and I am blessed because of it.
Sienna once again let the words of the Psalms feel her heart with joy, tonight was going to be magical and she owed that to the Lord, she knew that. She had found the strength in the Lord, and she owed all the goodness and glory to him.
The words of Psalm 51 played through her mind, and she found herself gently tapping her hands on her lifeless legs, quietly praising the Lord.
For the director of music. A psalm of David. When the prophet Nathan came to him after David had committed adultery with Bathsheba.
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
so that sinners will turn back to you.
14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
you who are God my Savior,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 Open my lips, Lord,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 My sacrifice, O God, is[b] a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart
you, God, will not despise.
18 May it please you to prosper Zion,
to build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,
in burnt offerings offered whole;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.
Dancing with Chad, felt right, forgetting everyone and everything around her, letting her body move to the music. When she was dancing, she almost forgot about the chair, it was no longer a hindrance but something that allowed her to move, and with her in Chad’s arms, everything just felt right, felt perfect.
Thank you Lord, for letting fairy tale dreams come true .