By all means, I should have died.
God had other plans. Even when I fell from that tower, God had His hands on me. He protected me from even further severe injury. As bad as the accident was, things could have very easily been a lot worse than what they were.
I am paralyzed, unable to feel anything from the waist on down, but the fact is this: I am still alive, even after falling 50' from a tower I had been working on. I was helping some friends when the accident happened.
I have been in the hospital for over a month; getting ready to go to rehab now, where they will work with me to get me moving again. I may never walk again; but then again, I may, though it would be on crutches or a walker. It's just too soon to tell.
I have my bad days where I remember my life B.T.A. (Before The Accident): I was active on our church's men's softball league, a loving husband to my wife, a supportive and wonderful father to our two sons, ages 5 and 11, ran 5 miles a day. It still makes me sad, but I have since learned that just because I may never walk again, it doesn't mean my life is over.
I can still have a good life, even if I never do walk again and/or have to spend the rest of my days in a wheelchair. There are still plenty of things that I can do, even if I may have to do it sitting down or standing supported between two crutches strapped to my forearms.
The road back is going to be long, painful (for muscles I never even knew I had), and hard, but I am determined. I don't want to spend the rest of my days feeling sorry for what I have lost. I have a family and a church to get back to. I have my regular job as a librarian to return to. I have my friends to support and rally around me once I do return home.
In addition to that, I also have the sustaining grace and love of my God, who has been with me all this time. It is because of Him that I still live, even after being severely injured and paralyzed as a result.
I don't know what the future holds for me, exepct that I will never walk under my own power, but I am determined to get what I lost back. I WILL walk again. You just watch. I. WILL. Walk. AGAIN!!
~To be continued.~