By junior year I was feeling pretty lonely
and I went to this party
where all the pretty girls were going
so I had to go and everything
and there were boys there from the college.
I didn’t’see those boys very often
and I was curious
especially about the one named Josh;
he seemed nice
and I had watched him from the time I arrived.
He seemed nice but more important
he seemed to have confidence in himself
in a way I wished I had confidence my self.
I openly looked at him and caught his eye
letting hm know girl-way
that I liked him
and miracle of all miracles he understood my look-
closed his eyes and started across the room toward me
a gentle smile on his face, growing as he drew near.

I was thrilled as I felt him before he even got close to me,
he had something which made me feel weak and a bit frightened but very excited.

Directly in front of me now
I gave him my blank stare as he
he towered above me
and I
suddenly realizing
that all eyes were upon us.

To have a college boy interested in you
was the height
the room stood still as he pivoted to stand
beside me
like we already knew each other and everything
I could hear little gasps of surprise because
my girls friends thought that we
somehow
did know each other.

He stood there beside me
watching everyone in the room watch us
then he took my hand
slowly into his,
a soft touch, just a soft touch
not an aggressive touch
and whispered
“Act casual and we can just cruise right on out of here
You go first-I will cover you.”

He made me laugh and in that moment I relaxed.
Josh had the ability to make me laugh from the very start.

I took his hand and led him toward a side door
 into what was a small garden
with sliding glass doors
so everyone could see us
but not hear us.
 I was so relieved to be out of there
and he was too I guess.
He chuckled, still holding my hand
finally saying;
“I am never going to let go of your hand
ever."

I looked at him sideways
and he burst out laughing
“Well I will let go sometime
but not before you give me
one of your beautiful smiles.”

Involuntarily I did give him a big smile-
he made me smile,
and then with that smile still on my face
he slowly took his hand from mine
and placed his finger tips on my lips.

The entire room behind those glass doors
gave a hushed gasp
I could almost hear
and from my corner eye
I could see
  heads swirling
as people did double-takes
looking at us.
Then for the first time in a long time I felt like the pretty girl
a real pretty girl
and thinking if Josh was or was not going to be the one
to whom I would lose my virginity to.
I blushed at the thought.

To be Continued