I suddenly find myself waking up in the middle of the night, sweat soaking my sheets, and horrific memories invading my subconscious. The very sight of the aliens themselves, with their greyish, mottled smooth skin, big bug eyes, and long, spindly arms and legs, not to mention, their protruding stomachs. The sensation of needles (and God knows what else) being shoved into various parts of my person, and the sheer helplessness of not being able to move because I was lashed to the table.
I don't know what I could have possibly done to deserve such barbaric treatment or why I was the one chosen. I wonder if I was their unwilling guinea pig for some sick sexual game or scientific experiment. It is enough to make me nauseated or give me alternating spells of chills and hot flashes.
I have tried to tell my wife (or anybody else who will listen), but all they've done is laugh at me and/or say that I have some screws loose in my noggin; yet I remember certain instances so vividly: the needles being shoved into my skin, the claustrophobia I felt when I realized that I could not move, the sight of those ugly, sneering extraterrrestial beings. I remember the cold, silver interior of the spaceship and the bright, twinkling orange, yellow, red, and white lights, and not knowing what I was going through or why.
I remember a shapely extraterrestial wench fondling me and her doing strange things to me and wondering if I was somehow carrying an alien baby inside of me, then laughing at myself when I thought of myself becoming pregnant.
The truth of the matter is this: I still don't know, and I don't know if I ever will. All I know is that I was at the mercy of these beings and now I must learn to deal with these memories ... and somehow move on (if I ever can).
I have been toying with the idea of seeing a shrink about what I have experienced, but am afraid that if I do, I will end up in the funny farm in full strait jacket mode and then they can say that I am crazy or touched, but the reality is this: I know what happened to me and what I saw, smelled, tasted, felt, heard is very real to me.
~To be continued!~