School started back up and the feeling of depression returned. Shana worried about how otherís would treat her, and how she would survive in school without her hearing. She had gone to classes over the Summer to learn sign language but only upon her Motherís insistence, but she didnít think any of her friends new sign language, and how would she succeed in a hearing school when she could not hear. She was entering her Senior year and would only have nine more months of her highschool career, but those nine months seemed like an eternity.
Who would want to ask her to Prom when the time came, she wouldnít even be able to hear the music? The thought brought tears to her eyes, she could no longer hear music her one passion. The one thing she thought for a long time she was called to do, but obviously God had different plans, and she wasnít sure she was ready to face those plans, but she really didnít have a choice did she?
Lord get me through school, I can not get through this year without you, I canít get through anything without you Lord.
Shana spent the few days before school, trying to figure out ways of getting out of going to school, but she knew her Mother would see through all her excuses, so she would have to face school, a challenge she wasnít sure she was ready for.
Shana and her Mother left for school early, her Mother was coming to talk to her teachers, it was embarrassing in Shanaís opinion but she knew it had to be done. She wanted to get through this, but so much had changed, her life had changed so drastically.
Lord I donít know how this is going to be, but I need to get through this. I need to make it through this year. Lord let me not be picked on to much, or treated as if I have some horrible disease, let everyone see that I am basically the same person, I just canít hear.
A few of Shanaís closest friends had came by and visited Shana, in the hospital and after that at home. They knew of her deafness, and still held on to that friendship knowing that their friend really had not changed, but what about other friends, those who didnít know about what had happened, how would Shana tell them, and how would they react when she told them?
Lord I donít want to loose friends because I have lost my hearings, but I will know if I loose those friends it is because for some reason they are not meant to be in my life, or they just arenít true friends.