Can someone who has never had a mother be a mother?
The tragic story of Mary Green, as told by her daughter ...
My life was turned upside down in 2001 when a surprise letter from an Aunt I had never met motivated me to search for Audrey, the mother I had last spoken to 30 years ago, only to discover that she had taken her own life in 1985. Overwhelmed with feelings of sadness, anger and guilt, and realizing for the first time how little I really knew about my mother, I began an obsessive search for answers - answers to the many questions I would now have asked Audrey personally, were she still alive.
"In Search of A Mother" documents the highs and the lows of my search. The satisfaction of finally uncovering the Truth about my mother, including her real name, contrasts with the pain of being unable to re-live the past - differently.
I had not realised that my mother had a brother. My father had spoken of her sisters, but never of a brother. I also did not realise that her mother had died when she was so young, and that she had therefore spent so much of her childhood in an institution. In particular, I had always known her as Audrey Freeman, and did not realise that her real name was Mary Green. She had apparently been adopted in 1945 at 13 years of age and at that time her name was changed from Gladys Mary Green to Lilian Audrey Freeman by the couple who adopted her, William Arthur and Lilian May Freeman. I knew she had lived with a couple for a while, whom assumed were foster parents. It had never occurred to me that the Freemans had legally adopted my mother. That being the case, Arthur and Lilian Freeman were my grandparents, but I had never met them. I began to feel a sense of unease at the realisation that I actually knew very little about my own mother ...