||August 29, 2009
Do you feel like low self esteem is holding you back?
Chelynne Nicole's story of a young bride in an abusive marriage is gripping and real. The decisions she made as young teen to get married was the catalyst that started her on a landslide of self-destructive behavior. Suffering from low self esteem she made decisions compounded by the abuse which catapulted her into choosing two more abusive partners.
Her story is full of love, rejection, loss, fear and so much pain, that at one point she was suicidal.
“Carnival Mirror is armed with tools and tips for teens and adults who suffer from low self esteem and how you can let go of your hardships of the past, embrace the present and look forward to your future.
Excerpt from "Carnival Mirror"
As the fall came in, my loneliness got worse. My daughter was spending more time with her Father and step-mom and I didn't have any prospects for a new boyfriend or any friends at this time. Soon, Winter was closing in and the holidays weren't far behind. I put up a small tree with what little money I had and got some things for my daughter. I loved filling her stocking with candy canes, and little trinkets. It never really mattered what I got her for Christmas, her Dad would always out-do me. He would show his love with material things.
Christmas came and went and my depression and loneliness worsened. I was sitting on the edge of the bed on New Year's eve and was so alone and sad. I put on my best tight jeans, heels and a sweater, dabbed on my favorite perfume and headed out the door. Next thing I knew I was in the car driving, not sure where I was going.
I pulled up to Rocco's apartment not even thinking of all the hell he put me through. I just wanted to be held by someone familiar and not feel lonely. We rang in the New Year with fresh fruit, chips and chocolates, but no alcohol. Rocco had lost his license from too many DUI's. I spent the night and we got up and made French toast together. I started spending more and more time with the man he was when I first fell in love with him. When he wasn't drinking he was a lot of fun. I still wasn't thinking about everything he had done to me. I was enjoying feeling needed and loved again.
Three weeks later I realized I was pregnant. I told Rocco and we thought about it and decided to get married again.. The months I was pregnant were fun months. We got an apartment together and went swimming a lot and even went camping. When I reached 7 months, the baby tried to come early and the doctor put me on bed rest. One day, I craved something sweet and Rocco, made French toast sticks out of hot dog buns. I thought that was so sweet. He did have a charming side. We got along great. I was on bed rest for the rest of the pregnancy. I got bored a lot and leaned on Rocco to tell me jokes, bring me magazines and rent movies for me.
As soon as our baby boy was born we named him Matthew. Rocco was so happy, taking pictures, laughing and passing out cigars. But his mood changed the day we brought him home. He held me up against the wall, dropped his voice and said in a chilling voice“ You will never have him, he will never be yours.” Rocco left me that night, my first night home and went to a concert. He did not get home until the next day. When I asked him where he was, he said he was with a friend and stayed out all night to keep him out of trouble. I resented him horribly for leaving me alone the first night we brought our baby boy home.
Carnival Mirror's depth lies in its simplicity. It is a story of perseverance, personal evaluation and triumph. A read that is captivating and practical. It gives you the ability to reflect on your own life and see the tides of your own self esteem whether they be low or high. Carnival Mirror gives you sound and simple steps to strengthening your own self esteem.
Leah Vanpoelvoorde, Synergy Work, Inc, Life/Business Coach
Like reading someone's diary..
“Carnival Mirror” is like reading someone’s diary, their innermost thoughts spilled out for anyone to see. Women of any age, young, old, whatever their race or upbringing will find something that they can relate to. The gamut of emotions I went through with the character was astounding! Thank you for sharing you hardships, heartaches and your triumphs with the literary world.
Sherri Evola, Real Estate Consultant/Productivity Coach/Marketing Specialist
Rebuild your self esteem..
I couldn’t put “Carnival Mirror” down. I was so captivated by her story! I anxiously read each “self esteem” tip at the end of every chapter. Carnival Mirror helped me take a look at my own negative “self-talk” and helped me rebuild my self esteem.
Breanna Davis, Nutrition Club Owner
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