A memoir about healing from sexual abuse, eating disorders, self injury and depression.
At the age of twenty-one, Jenna Young seemed to have it all. She had a full time job that she loved, was attending college At the age of twenty-one, Jenna Young seemed to have it all. She had a full time job that she loved, was attending college to become a Radiologist, and spent her free time with friends shopping, going out to eat, and going to parties. When an injury caused her busy life to come to a standstill, she was forced to confront her past, which she had until then managed to push to the back of her mind. As the unspeakable horrors that she had lived through came to the surface, it all became too much to handle and she suffered a breakdown that lead to hospitalization. Told through flashbacks and journal entries, you will be able to follow Jenna as she struggles to pick up the pieces of her shattered life, and finally finds the courage to speak up about the dark secrets of her past.
Despite everything that had happened to me, I had never even for a single second thought things would come to this. There I was twenty-one years old, locked up in a psychiatric hospital. I had signed myself in, which is something I would have never done if I had not completely fallen apart one Saturday night in late January. I had been relentlessly depressed for months. The dark secrets of my past that I had kept locked deep inside were slowly killing me. They had been for the past ten years, but no one knew. I had learned at an exceptionally young age how to hide my true feelings. I could never tell anyone what had happened to me, it was just too unspeakable.
“Have you ever wanted to hurt yourself?”
“Have you ever purposely caused injury to your body?”
“Do you ever think about suicide?”
“Are you feeling suicidal now?”
I was crying, but I had no intentions of answering any of her questions. The truth was, I had cut my wrist several weeks ago, and made up excuses about how it had happened that I seriously doubted anyone really believed. I had cut often, because it was the only way that I knew how to alleviate all of the pain that had been building up inside of me for such a long time. I thought about suicide frequently, and even had a plan if things ever got so bad that it came to that. I had nightmares about killing myself on a regular basis. There was no way I could tell her this though. The nurse finally left after realizing her interrogation was getting her nowhere, and a few minutes later Mrs. B came in. She asked me some of the same questions the nurse did.
The difference was with her I could not lie. I just could not lie to her.
Jenna Young's Just Listen- A Memoir
‘I made you, you have to let me. I can do what I want.’
Jenna Young’s Just Listen – A Memoir is a persuasive account of one survivor
of sexual abuse, depression and self injury including eating disorders.
Just Listen available as a Kindle download and paperback work from Lulu is a work comprising 14 chapters. I will detail Chapter 1 more heavily because it sets the tone, pace and understanding for the chapters following.
At age 21 Jenna Young found herself in a psychiatric hospital following ten
depression years during which time Jenna had been bulimic was becoming
anorexic and had resorted to self mutilation to help alleviate the pain she had carried for years after learning at an early age to hide her feelings.
The book opens just after Christmas as Jenna is recovering from a car crash
which left her wearing a cast and walking on crutches, she had a job she
enjoyed, friends and a life which seemed to be on track.
During a shopping trip another car crash taking place in front of her triggered emotions she was unable to stifle and ultimately led Jenna to a hospital ER where the nurse quickly noted the scars on her wrist, began to question and a volunteer stay at South Pines Psychiatric Hospital,
psychological evaluation and the question, ‘Have you ever been sexually abused.’
Able to at last face the awfulness of the ordeal, to begin talking about the
experience, and receive the help and needed reassurance that all victims must have; Jenna began the long road to recovery. Eight days after she signed herself into the Hospital Jenna was released to first face the
Confrontation she had to have with her abuser. She sent him an email. His response did not address the abuse, rather he told Jenna he had had a bad childhood. Jenna’s predictable reaction to having no release to her own pain was more cutting,and a second go round at South Pines Psychiatric Hospital.
Jenna’s recovery was a long hard walk filled with stress, learning to deal with the relentless of the past, able to face the stress, and talking two steps forward and one back as is experienced by most who have undergone repeated, ongoing anguish.
For a time during the six months Jenna experienced beginning with the first
hospitalization episode, facing the abuse, dealing with stress, flashbacks and nighmares, more cutting episodes, suicide attempts and desperation plus more times spent in the hospital were the norm in Jenna’s life, at last Jenna hit what she realized was ROCK BOTTOM and the long road to recovery could actually begin.
Interspersed within the sequence of events are narratives from Jenna’s journals written during that period in her life as well as, poems, and letters and emails from her grandmother. Friendships made and lost, relatives who at first believe
and then deny that the abuse took place are all a too familiar part of most survivor stories.
The last four chapter titles Starting Over Once Again. Falling Fast to the
Ground, Picking Up the Pieces and at last A Whole New World sum up and
round out the work.
‘I was abused, but that abuse will no longer define me, it is not who I am.’
Jenna Young has written a compelling narrative filled with the denial of abuse, despair that accompanies such denial and the long road to recovery. Jenna’s story is one that counselor’s, teachers and others can recognize and
understand. Familial denial makes recovery even harder, however it is no way negates the impact of the tale.
Today Jenna Young has continued her recovery to the point that she is now at a healthy weight, no longer finds solace in self mutilation, accepts that abuse, the friendships or relationships lost cannot dictate her future and has in fact found happiness in marriage and can plan a future filled with happiness, hope and children with a spouse who is
understanding, patient and loving.
Happy to recommend Jenna Young’s Just Listen – A Memoir especially for those
who may themselves have been abused as children, for counselors, high school
library and home book shelves.
A few typos noted.
Chapter titles include:
Chapter One: The Breakdown
Chapter Two: The Confrontation
Chapter Three: South Pines, Part Two
Chapter Four: The Silent Treatment
Chapter Five: South Pines, Part Three
Chapter Six: Deeper into Darkness
Chapter Seven: South Pines, Part Four
Chapter Eight: Falling Apart
Chapter Nine: A New Beginning
Chapter Ten: Wherever You Go, There You are
Chapter Eleven: Starting Over Once Again
Chapter Twelve: Falling Fast to the Ground
Chapter Thirteen: Picking Up the Pieces
Chapter Fourteen: A Whole New World
During her road to recovery Jenna Young learned: 50% of woman who were sexually abused later develop some form of an eating disorder; as an anorexic 5’6” 107 pound woman Jenna felt herself fat.
Reviewed by Molly’s Reviews
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|Reviewed by m j hollingshead
|Interspersed within the sequence of events are narratives from Jenna’s journals written during that period in her life as well as, poems, and letters and emails from her grandmother. Friendships made and lost, relatives who at first believe and then deny that the abuse took place are all a too familiar part of most survivor stories.
The last four chapter titles Starting Over Once Again. Falling Fast to the Ground, Picking Up the Pieces and at last A Whole New World sum up and round out the work.
‘I was abused, but that abuse will no longer define me, it is not who I am.’
Jenna Young has written a compelling narrative filled with the denial of abuse, despair that accompanies such denial and the long road to recovery. Jenna’s story is one that counselor’s, teachers and others can recognize and understand. Familial denial makes recovery even harder, however it is no way negates the impact of the tale.
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