And now Creating Dreams takes you on the journey of an Adult Child, dealing with the anger and confusion of a dysfunctional childhood, up to the point of addiction.
Addiction not only to drugs and alcohol but also to women and people that would fall for the manipulative games played during those insane times.
"Creating Dreams" is the prequel to "War Zone" and it lets go the last secrets of the past.
Dave Harm learned as a child, that abuse was acceptable, whether physically, sexually, or emotionally. The ends justified the means.
Written as an Adult Child of an Alcoholic and as an alcoholic himself, every chapter shares a part of his past. From childhood, to grade school, to high school, and college, the path to destruction can be seen as
every page screams for help...
Can a child learn to live and function in society, while memories of a dysfunctional past haunt him? This is my question. A question, which I have not been able to answer, satisfactorily till this day. Yes, I'm alive, now over 50 years of age, but I still find trouble trying to function. I know how to survive. I learned that at a very early age. With two drunken parents, two brothers filled with anger and rage, and another brother who ran away and never looked back, survival got me to this point. But there has got to be more.
By the time I was seven years old, I was on my way to being a master manipulator. Anything I could do, to give my life any resemblance of peace I would try. At this age, my major weapon was - lying. I lied for my drunken mom, so she wouldn't be beaten by a father, who would come home from work expecting dinner and finding nothing. "Hi Dad. Mom has been in bed all day, she's really sick." A silence would fill the room. He knew I was lying, but somewhere in his own mind, he also knew I was a child. For an hour, maybe a little more, the house was quiet. During that time, Dad would drink his scotch and waters. Two,
three, maybe four. Pacing the house, any attempts to have a conversation with him, was a waste of time. As time past, you could cut the tension with a knife. Death hung in the air. Dad was ready to explode, and Mom would pay the price, for drinking all day. For sleeping, when there was no supper. For not being responsible enough, to make sure their filthy kid, took a bath. Anything and everything would be her fault, and she would pay the price. Growing up in this situation I began to feel the weight of the world. I came to believe these beatings were a direct result of my actions. Smacks could be heard throughout the house. The silence was now broken, with the screams of my Mom and the yells of Dad. Walls would shake, as she was repeatedly thrown against them, or picked up from the floor and slammed down once again. What is a child
suppose to do? I still hear the screams. I see the black eyes, the swollen cheeks, and hear my fatherís words. "If you don't quit drinking, I'll kill you."
Dreams of a childhood are filled with innocence and fantasy, unless that child lives in a dysfunctional home. Dave Harm was raised in a home with two alcoholic parents. His dreams were about survival and escape. This meant he would run away from the pain of physical, emotional, and sexual abuse. First, Harm tried running away physically. When that no longer worked he ran away spiritually by burying his soul in alcohol and drugs.
Overtime, all his methods to avoid pain failed. All that was left was the rage which was stored in him since childhood. His addictive behaviors led to altercations with the law, as well as suicide attempts. Harmís self-destruction cost him jobs, homes, family, and marriages. But through all the nightmares he still had dreams. And his dreams began to come alive when he surrendered to alcoholism.
Dave Harm started his spiritual journey in 1994. In 2006, his story was profiled in the National Recovery Month campaign and he was named a Recovery Hero. This is the third book in Harmís trilogy, all sharing different times in his life and the spiritual journey he continues to enjoy.