A mid-western man has a spiritual awakending in an airport terminal.
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I looked up to the sky and realized for the first time that there was probably
something to it all. I saw so much more than clouds, planes, blue sky and birds.
I saw where I came from. I saw where I was going.
The most shocking is that I saw beyond it all to where my mother was now. I realized I'd
never have the chance to say what she really deserved to hear. I had been angry and
bitter at the world. I took it all out on her.
The one who had given me the most had gotten the least in return.
Suddenly I felt her beside me. I felt a peace that I had never experienced
before in my life. I knew then that people like Mark, Larry and Father Novak were tight
and I was wrong. All of a sudden I didn't know what to do with that peace. I thought
how my mother had given me life.
Now through her death, I was given life again.
The clarity I was experiencing was such a blessing, but at the same time it made me
realize what a horrible human being I had been for the past thirty-three years.
I fell to my knees in shame. I wept uncontrollably. I had been a horrible son, friend,
neighbor, employee and boyfriend. I became weak and light headed.
Death seemed near. I yelled out for God's compassion and grace. I just lay there
outside the terminal on the sidewalk sobbing, waiting for something to happen.......