This book is dedicated to all the survivors of sexual assault, whether of the past, present, the young, old, man or woman, boy or girl, who spend their lives holding their breaths, not able to breathe because they are seeking release from a world of guilt and shame. This book is also for those that have decided to speak up and speak out against rape...and to Maya Angelou, Oprah Winfrey, Gabrielle Union and Teri Hatcher, thank you for forsaking self and speaking out against sexual assault and inspiring me to realize that I am no longer a victim but a survivor."
As I began my journey, I was a woman trying to identify herself. A woman wanting to discover whom she really was. Mentally I felt that because I experienced such a devastating trauma in my youth that I not only had lost touch with everything and everyone that I had ever known and that I had even lost touch with myself. During my searching and pondering and pondering and searching, I still felt lost and confused and lived in a world of guilt in shame because now I knew that I had lost touch with my true identity and dwelled in a place that was filled with darkness and void.Over time as I began to cultivate my spiritual relationship with Christ, I then began to search the scriptures for consolation and inner peace. During my search I found a woman in Mark 5:25-30; whom is more commonly referred to as the “woman with the issue of blood”, and here I remember thinking, surely this is who I am, this is someone I can truly identify with. I mean after all, I too am a woman that had suffered for many years with an ailment that no medicine or doctor could cure.
My true and only desire is that the healing begins from your assault and that you understand that your assault was not your fault but that you have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. As a matter of fact your attacker should be ashamed that they would have to prey on the innocent and unwilling to satisfy their own selfish desires. I pray that you begin to pick up the pieces in your life and that you realize you too have a purpose and should never give up on your dreams.
To empower yourself, you must first realize that the power lies within your true self and it is up to you to use your resources and inner strengths to access that empowerment. My breakthrough came through my faith in God and perseverance and it was not until then that I realized that I am no longer that frightened little girl that was raped at thirteen, I am now a strong and brave woman of faith and know that I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me.
Therefore, I say unto you, wheresoever these pages shall be read, throughout the entire world, that there will be this, of how a young girl was victimized in her a youth but overcame as a woman; and that it not only be shared and read as a memory of me but as tool for other survivors of rape so that they can share and know that they too can overcome and become empowered after rape.