My marriage was fallening apart and it forced me to begin looking at myself for my problems instead of blaming others. This event, ultimately brought me to my knees and began the process of healing. After years of journaling, as therapists call it, I found I had written a book.
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Trying to forgive infidelity takes more courage and determination than many are willing to muster. He is desperately hanging onto the marriage while obsessing over the betrayal and the endless pool of events of it. Struggling with forgiveness, he comes to many startling conclusions through his couseling. He realizes that his own adult troubles have roots in the past and he has to do something to keep the marriage from failing. The author reveils his childhood mental and sexual abuse, addiction to pornography, co-dependency, broken trusts and personal fears in vivid detail. The author finds inner forgiveness and recovery is not an easy tasks. We do not have many chances to forgive, but the reward is worth it.
All I know is I could not take it and the only way to deal with it was to let her go. I talk to Nikki several times a day and she convinced me she would never do it again; she asked me or begged me to come back. Her statement was, "Who can you trust if you can't trust me? I would be a fool to do that again and cause you pain. God would take my life if I did it again". Well, it sounded okay and I did not want to lose my daughter, so I figured maybe I should shallow my pride and see what happens.