||Sep 25, 2008
What happens when you follow your heart instead of your head? What if you walked away from everything just to answer one question...the question of what if you just took a real chance and really lived. What if?
The Paris Diaries Preview
The Paris Diaries is a journey about love and what happened to me along the way.
The lessons, the people, and the reality that sometimes when you choose to love, in a jaded world, you grow in ways that are beyond flesh.
When a person holds themselves back from realizing their full potential, they fail. My words and not the image, there is no fire in my eyes. I look tired, and I show my age, which is fine, this is not about vanity…it is that he did not show my full look with my eyes staring into his. That was the honest part of this work. The life behind the art, the reality of the experience that it was for both of us, the truth, and I did not have to kill the piece, he did. Out of fear, he destroyed what would have been an incredible creation. Now it is just a footnote.
It is a sad thing. Think about it. When you see a work, read a book, see a play and at that moment where you sense something is off, that there was another option that would have made it sing to you, and the performer, the artist, or the writer, failed you. My words were perfect for the piece because I dared to rip my insides out, to say what only people think. I gave that for the viewer. Most will know, this is not what was intended. He knows of my displeasure. It was too safe. I wanted to be transparent and open and show all that I was, and he softened it, and made me into a tame little girl instead of the strong sensual woman I am.
It is his worst work. I hold that title alone. For it is the most dishonest piece he has ever created. That is why I will never look upon it. I have seen the image, and I have no desire to ever see it again. My reason for going to Paris, to see myself in an exhibition has been killed by his dishonesty as an artist. He did not do what he must do. He lied. He showed fear. I cannot make love to a coward. So I have let him go. Quietly to disappear from my life, the notes will slip away.
No tears. No regrets. I showed him desire, love, lust and want. I made him feel my words and to know the truth in them. Now, I am just a dream to fade away. He had thought not to show me the images. That should have warned him. If he held any doubt about showing his work to me, he should have known then I would see….he lied in his work. The Truth Mixed with a Lie is what my piece should be named. I am angry that he robs himself by worrying about what other people will say. I will forever ignore the piece. A beautiful memory destroyed by fear. At long last I finally understand why he possesses so much of his work. It is not for lack of promotion or having the right people around him. He stops himself. His defensive nature poisons his product.
I never thought I would see an artist kill their own work, and I have been a part of something horrible. I saw beyond the words. I saw the story that was within the image and the real image of the look exchanged between the artist and the subject, where they faced each other with fire.
So in Paris, I will forget the man I loved by loving another. PG, you are a very lucky man and I have not even met you yet.
A Dynamic Erotic Treat
Almost immediately, you know you get more than you bargained for in this book. The physical tome is presented in a highly florid manner, complete with breathtaking cover art and large-sized volume. Immediately, the reader is aware that the story within will be an erotic treat.
Campiz greets readers in a stream of consciousness tradition that reflects the narrator's state of mind. Readers will immediately fall into the reverie that causes one to be pulled to the book, even after putting it down. Our narrator represents everything that is bold and fiery in a woman, and we are eager to follow the adventure she is laying out until the end. Ready to grab life, she sets herself up fro romantic adventure in her pursuit of her dream: Paris. Her visit proves to be all that one expects, despite the constant pull of an unrequited love and the shuffling of some lesser men.
As if her adventures aren't enough, the narrator introduces us to Ruzica, her roommate and friend in Paris, and we are treated to a story within a story. Ruzica's history is strikingly raw, and her trials and tribulations cause us to root for her. You will be surprised by your reaction to this sweet character and her story.
This is a dynamic book that constantly changes right to the end, and it is not for the repressed or faint of heart. Explore this story only if you're ready to leave behind the normal and truly pursue your desires.
Reviewed By Michelle Robertson for Readers’ Favorite
Live the story of Marilyn Campiz, a retired 20-year United States Air Force Staff and writer as she tells it in a first hand documented erotic and sensual love quest of entries she pursued in Paris. Trying to get away from the stereotypical way most men and some women think a woman or family should be like - husband, wife, home, family, love, and sex - she begins to express and live a different approach to life. As she searches Paris for the true meaning of herself as a woman, her soul, her lifestyle, love, and men, she meets five men in Paris who seem to allow her to gain the knowledge she seeks, and also gain some knowledge of their own. Through her journey, she begins to correspond with a friend over the course of many months. This is far from the ordinary pen-pal letter however; it seems as if she has fallen in love with her correspondent. Or is it lust? What is it that she actually desires? Does she want love, friendship, or both? Will life allow it all to be so?
The Paris Diaries written by Marilyn Campiz is a remarkable memoir which introduces readers to the erotic, sensual, exquisite, extraordinary, and emotional journey the author takes while soul searching in Paris. The text itself is written very clearly and displayed well throughout the pages of the book. Comprehensibility is great, although there are some very graphic parts within that should be not be read by a younger reading audience due to highly provocative language and scenes. This book is not for easily offended readers, or those close-minded to sexual content. A reader who enjoys a bit of erotica in a romance novel filled with a very independent, strong-willed woman's viewpoints will love this book and I highly recommend it to them.
A Search for Reality
Marilyn Campiz retired after 20 years in the United States Air Force with the rank of Senior Master Seargent(corrected). She expresses in The Paris Diaries a search for reality outside of the conventional lifestyle that most people accept and exist in; The husband, the home, the family, the sex, even love.
All of these became to Marilyn something unreal, not true, perhaps even laughable. She takes a journey which begins in Colorado and leads to France to search her soul and that of others for the feelings that were urging her forward on this quest. The feelings that I am more than just a woman, a woman to take to bed, a woman to care for everyone but myself, to follow everyone else's orders. She knew within her that somehow men had to be different than just the animal-natured man most women meet. She finds her answers in the multiple male friends she meets in Paris. She does what so many women would like to do; Begin over with her own set of rules.
This book is a wonderful journey into the understanding of herself as well as man - helping these men to see themselves. This book is very descriptive pertaining to a few sexual thoughts and acts. Language should be checked in the case of young readers. Words which some would consider offensive are used. This is a steamy and provocative journal of one woman's life. This book should become a classic!
Want to review or comment on this
Click here to login!
Need a FREE Reader Membership?
Click here for your Membership!