AuthorsDen.com   Join (Free!) | Login  

     Popular! Books, Stories, Articles, Poetry
   Services MarketPlace (Free to post!)
Where Authors and Readers come together!

SIGNED BOOKS    AUTHORS    eBOOKS new!     BOOKS    STORIES    ARTICLES    POETRY    BLOGS    NEWS    EVENTS    VIDEOS    GOLD    SUCCESS    TESTIMONIALS

Featured Authors:  John McCoy, iShawn Cormier, iLinda Frank, iGwendolyn Moore, iJ.E. Thompson, iScott Knutson, iKevin Weeks, i

  Home > Action/Thriller > Books Popular: Books, Stories, Articles, Poetry     

Tova Gabrielle

· Become a Fan
· Contact me
· Books
· Articles
· Poetry
· Stories
· 208 Titles
· 444 Reviews
· Add to My Library
· Share with Friends!
·
Member Since: Before 2003

Tova Gabrielle, click here to update your pages on AuthorsDen.


Writing My Wrongs/Ch.5continued/Woods Hole and the Acid Gods
by Tova Gabrielle   

Share this with your friends on FaceBook
Books by Tova Gabrielle
· writing My Wrongs/Ch.6/The Brotherhood of the spirit
· chapter 6 continued (w. Mitch)
· Chapter 7 Working Hippies in Redneckland
· Pt.2/Chapter 11/ How the Commune Began
· Writing My Wrongs/Ch.8/Snapping
                >> View all

Category: 

Action/Thriller



arriving at the Brotherhood of the Spirit


 Woods Hole and the Acid Gods

Finally June and the end of school arrived. I skipped my graduation. I knew that

Cindy, had a babysitting job in Woods Hole but due to broken down communications,

I didn’t know exactly where.  I threw my few tee-shirts and  underwear into a brown

paper bag, along with two long white Muslim skirts that I’d made and embroidered

myself.  Then  I stuffed into my blue jean pocket, a tiny round tab of LSD stuck onto a

piece of white paper; just like the little pink round dot candies I’d peeled off the paper

with my teeth, as a kid. In Woods Hole, I ate the tab, tossing my fate to the Acid

Gods.  Standing on a village green, I was mesmerized by my once-stubby hands

which became transformed into exquisite works of art. I had a revelation  that my

hands  could think !    Someone was calling my name. I looked up from my trance

and saw Cindy waving wildly  and laughing from a psychedelic VW van.    “Get in!”

she yelled gleefully. 

 

 

86

 

Greg, the fuzzy creature at the steering wheel, had a face that wrinkled massively

when he smiled. He brought me home with him to share his clean, queen-size bed in

Boston’s East-West Center for Self Exploration, dedicated to Meher Baba. I was

overjoyed that I didn’t have to “pay rent”: he never laid a hand on me. 

Each day Greg arose to work in a state hospital and I traipsed off to the Boston

Common to get stoned and play my recorder. One day as he was leaving, Greg said,

sarcastically, “Don’t pick too many flowers.” I thought about him wiping people while I

played fairy-queen and realized that I was living off him. Reality hit: I didn’t know how

to provide for myself. 

By early August, Greg’s irritation had grown: he delivered me to a place where I

might be saved from whoring and addiction. It was better than the streets and I

couldn’t go home. I’d been banned again after Dad had said, “Millie…she’s trying to

kill me.” 

Arrival at The Commune/ all that false instruction, cont.

As we scaled the Berkshires, hope seemed to be rewiring my nervous system. Up

narrowing roads, twisting under giant oaks and maples, smells of fir and spruce

carried in shimmering silvers and greens blew the traumas from my body. Streams

rushed to refill me with an old lust for living. 

A hairpin turn up a steep hill, passing superimposed mountains, then around a bend,

and we suddenly descended upon a psychedelic wonderland. Multicolored signs

shouted out “All People Welcome.” And “ NO DRUGS. NO ALCOHOL NO

PROMISCUITY.” A purple farmhouse splashed with blue and green painted waves

 

 

87

stretched against meadows surrounded by forest. “Brotherhood of the Spirit” was

printed in gothic letters above a farmhouse door. Dozens of people were milling

about. Stepping down from the van, I eyed a fellow with glasses and a winning smile,

in animated discussion with someone. Soon he was standing alone, watching me

walk towards him. “Hi, do you live here?” “Yes,” he replied somberly, levelly studying

me. I was a fragment while he appeared solid, in control. “I’m Laura.” “I’m Stephen.”

He smelled like Patchouli and seemed attractive in a dangerous sort of way. I wished

he would smile at me. 

“Where are you from?” I couldn’t think of an answer. Home no longer counted. I

settled on the response I’d heard so many times that summer. 

“Everywhere, man.” 

Stephen stared at me, blankly. We just stood there. I considered saying, “I have to go

to the bathroom,” and not returning, but opted instead for a stream-of-consciousness

monologue about my father, the summer, and how I was led here by a series of

cosmic signs. I rambled. He said nothing, then finally interrupted. “Why are you telling

me this?” “I-I thought you wanted to know,” I stammered. 

“I strongly suggest that you don’t speak for a week,” Stephen proclaimed, turning

abruptly and walking quickly away. I was shocked. In Boston, it had been acceptable

to be “spacey” and most glitches could be fixed with a smile, a hug or a fling, but

here, apparently, something else was going on. 

I walked up the dirt driveway to the house, wishing for a joint, a butt, or a book to hide

behind. This two-hundred-year-old restaurant/inn seemed to have settled into the

land like it had grown there. In a fireplace room with hand-hewn beams, barn-board

 

 

88

trim, and hand-painted murals, there was a sign that read, “MEMBERS ONLY.”

Someone showed me to a makeshift addition that reminded me of the haphazard,

rambling, bungalow in my favorite childhood book, Pippi Longstocking. My

roommate, Denise, was a nervous New Yorker, who unexpectedly popped into

trances, channeling mundane information from the “other side.” I deposited my

sleeping bag and backpack and escaped down rickety stairs into a hall where food

was being served on the counter of a partitioned kitchen. The hallway was filling with

people. “Where are you from?” someone asked a woman. I heard her say

“Everywhere! Nowhere!” and cringed. 

Wandering down the hall, I came to a door over which was posted, “Toilet City.” I

knocked. “Come on in!” I poked my head in, discovering a circle of seven toilets

where two women sat doing their business, and quickly retreated, opting for the

outhouse across the huge field. Inside the outhouse were two seats. A plump, young

Southern woman drawled, “Hi! I’m Donna, are you a visitor?” I sat on the other toilet.

“Yeah....” It was good to have an identity again. “I’m a P.M.,” she announced. “What’s

that?” “Perspective Member.... It’s what you’ll be if you stay.” [The word, written and

spoken, was “perspective,” not prospective.] Graffiti on the pine walls read, “I am

vibrating creative energy. I vow to loose myself from my carnal self.” “Where’s the

toilet paper?” I asked. Donna handed me The Medium is the Message by Marshall

McLuhan.

 “A book?” 

Donna nodded. 

“Why books?” 

 

 

89

“They’re too intellectual. Here, if you crumple up the pages, they work fine.” 

I hobbled back to the house and stood in line for dinner. As I stood in line, a guy next

to me with matted hair delivered the party line: Material world is illusion. The planet is

a school where we learn to transcend our physical or emotional limitation. We save

the world by living together spiritually. Being spirit means we can do anything, from

altering the weather to saving the world. We set no limits on our abilities or each

other. Being spirit means defying one’s lower self. Seeing no trace of coffee

anywhere, I worried about rising to the challenge.

.  I was behind a guy with incredibly matted hair. I reached out and combed it out with

my fingers.  He warmly introduced himself to me as Toby.  Toby was a wiry,

spectacled, absent-minded professor type.     People kept asking  him for advice

about cars and he answered every question with a torrent of words that tumbled over

each other.  Once in a while I could decipher what he was saying:  “You just cram the

(thingamagic) up the (whatever) and then she’ll turn over for you.”  I contemplated

Toby’s red mouth and those long knobby fingers. My eyes wandered.  A guy named

Gurf was sitting on the radiator next to a  woman with large breasts.  She wore a

denim skirt,  gold and chartreuse socks and hiking boots. She  reminded me of Joan

Baez. He was saying to her “I don’t think you’re really being open to me.”  She

quickly answered “Hey, I  don’t really know you very well....” and he answered “Yes

you do, we’ve had many lives together, can’t you see it in my eyes?”

I filled my plate with brown rice and vegetables and escaped into a huge

dining/meeting room, rushing down the long, loosely tiled hall that seemed to heave

and buckle from the comings and goings of heavy work-boots and dirty sneakers.

 

 

90

Someone was sawing out windows as people ate. 

Painted in gold leaf upon slats of ceiling were something like the new-age Ten

Commandments; “The Seven Immutable Laws of the Universe” included Order,

Balance, Harmony, Growth, God-Perception, Spiritual Love, and Compassion. I sat

on the floor at a low, round table, staring at chiseled cheekbones and a waist-long

ponytail, as “Hoopie” explained to me that most people were on the fifth progression,

“God-Perception.” The commune’s leader, Michael (in New York, recording “Spirit in

Flesh”) was on the sixth. I worried silently that I was on the fourth: Growth “from the

carnal to the celestial.” Dale was in charge, Hoopie said, pointing towards a big,

reddish guy with long braids who was play wrestling with two yelping Great Danes. 

“You seem a little blown out.” Hoopie counseled, “You have to stop using your brain!

Just lose yourself in serving others.... That’s what I do.” Then, eyes searching, he

added, “It’s easy to get blown out by the energy here.... Man, when I first got here I

tried to use my brain, but when I let go of my brain, like Wow! I was a fish who

suddenly became a bird! Be sure to chew each mouthful a hundred times.” 

After dinner a cowbell rang and cries of, “Meeting! Meeting!” brought droves of

hippies indoors. I squeezed into a “full lotus” on the dirty floor to more easily center

myself. I was desperate. Laughter... I opened my eyes and realized with horror that

Dale was pointing at me.” “You don’t need fancy positions to be spiritual,” he

declared. Alarmed, I uncrossed my legs as he launched into a hypnotically vague

monologue, looking intently from one person to another, often closing his eyes, “...I

stayed up all night, meditating and praying... suddenly an owl swooped right across

my vision....” Long pause.... then, “I can not relate the peace that filled me!” The more

 

 

91

he talked, the more I wished he would disappear. It wasn’t the words, but the way he

said them, lulling, then accusing, entering my mind with eerie intensity and then

drilling me with the euphoric smile of either a master or a lunatic. When he looked my

way, I nodded defensively. After the meeting, he strode over to me and purred, “Hi.

I’m Dale.” 

“Laura,” 

“I know,” he said, dismissively. “You’re Jackie’s sister...” Another tortuous pause,

then: 

“You nodded before, but your heart wasn’t open.” A pang of panic shot through me

as Dale burst into laughter. I would have left, but had nowhere to go. 

After the meeting, Dale told us to pair up with someone we felt uncomfortable with.

That was easy. A man who looked like a rabbi and I simultaneously chose each

other. We sat on a picnic-table, eyeing each other. In high school, I’d led “encounter

groups,” but this was no high school and I was younger than the college age kids

here. Again, I found myself at a loss for words. I wiped away tears as “the rabbi”

condemned me with, “I think you need to relax.” I sent myself to bed early, for crimes

I couldn’t comprehend. 

When I walked into the room, I stopped short. In front of me was a wall of flashing

light. Strobe-white-pulses everywhere. At least I could understand what they meant

by “the energy here.” I found and unrolled my sleeping bag. Relieved that Denise

was gone, I collapsed, thinking of Ram Dass’ book, “Be Here Now.” It had been my

Bible, but now it seemed vague: where was “here”? And who was “I”? 

 





Want to review or comment on this book?
Click here to login!


Need a FREE Reader Membership?
Click here for your Membership!



Reader Reviews for "Writing My Wrongs/Ch.5continued/Woods Hole and the Acid Gods"

Reviewed by Earle Horton 1/15/2010
«"I strongly suggest that you don’t speak for a week,” Stephen proclaimed, turning abruptly and walking quickly away»

He said that to everyone who arrived there that summer. I can still hear him saying it to me. I've decided that Stephen, Dale and all the rest were total fakes. Maybe some of the women were sincere, like Wendy or Laurel. Maybe not. Maybe they wanted it to be real, but wanting something to be real and having it be real are different things.

I remember asking Sandy, who worked in the office, for some money so we could leave, a wife with no high school, two babies, and myself who had worked tirelessly on the commune's cars for years. We got nothing. No, those people had no heart.

Maybe I'll see you in August, maybe not. Maybe I'll go to Chimayó instead and ask the saint to forgive my sins. I'm not entirely blameless either. This is like a fine wine. The anger is gone but the bitterness remains.

I like the new format. Paragraphs! I think people might read it, for morbid curiosity if for nothing else. You have helped me some. Thanks.


Books by
Tova Gabrielle



Writing My Wrongs/ Ch.3/Prisoner of the freeway




Authors alphabetically: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Featured Authors | New to AuthorsDen? | Add AuthorsDen to your Site
Share AD with your friends | Need Help? | About us


Problem with this page?   Report it to AuthorsDen
© AuthorsDen, Inc. All rights reserved.