Our past has the power to beat us up if we let it. We can't seem to get over all the things we have done and what others have done to us. It's ok because there is a word called forgiveness. Christ forgives us daily so why can't we forgive ourselves and others? We waist so much time and time is irreplaceable. It only goes foward, not backwards. So let go of the hurt in your heart whether it's self inflicted or by someone else. It's not worth it. Christ died to carry all our hurts, our sins and most of all he is still able to do so because he lives. Time waits for no one.
I have learned so much being in a Christian mar-riage. I came into my marriage remembering the old men I expected my husband to behave like them. I even thought he was going to treat me bad like they did also. I went on how my parents treated each other. Although in a long term marriage, there was night and day. My mother was saved and my dad was not. She got married after being in a relationship for 11 years then got saved. So the standard to be with a man was already in place before marriage was a factor. I let what my parents (the past) dictate my future. My father was married but didnít respect the rules of coming home at a decent time and what his priorities were as a married man. Thatís what my problem was. I had no respect for living as a married woman and wanted to do what I wanted to. I wanted to keep ties with people who didnít have my best interest at heart. We have no right to treat people like garbage. Whereís the respect? We have no business using pre-nuptials or having a back up plan before the first year is even over. Yes tough times come but why give up before you see what youíre made of.
You didnít trust God and said to hell with it. We literally meant that. So why did we rehearse and say vows unto God and then say, ďWell God you knew my heart.Ē Itís a plain old lie and you know it. The gates of hell are waiting for the men more than the women because the instruction was given to the man to serve and protect. Because this is still an army and it has to be fought. Now the law was to all mankind. The good fight of faith is dwindling. Now I am not saying woman are innocent, being one myself, we can cut pretty deep with our mouths but we just want our men to be all they can be. We love you and we believe in you.
But you have to believe in yourselves for it to work.
For me, I want to change, so here I am pouring out of my spirit, reaching out and realizing Iím not too big to receive help.
I remain teachable, and so should you.