My first book, which is in the form of a journal, and focuses on my life and daily struggles. A must read....
Iíve found my love for writing is just what the doctor ordered, he couldnít have prescribed a better medicine. Sometimes I felt as though that I couldnít talk to anyone about the things that troubled me, so I kept those things inside. One day, I picked up a pen and wrote my thoughts down, trying to make some logic of them. I didnít know that it would develop into a type of therapy; I didnít know that it could launch the healing process.
Back in 1997, I wrote my first poem ever, ďThese Four WallsĒ, it took a little weight off my chest for a moment or so. Back then, all I did was sit inside my room and feel apologetic for myself, Iíd cry, then Iíd write some more, and cry again, until it was finally completed. When my friends had abandoned me, and I felt like I had no one to turn to, I always knew that my pen and paper could identify with what I had on my mind. I knew that they could relate and aid me in discovering what was in my heart. It was truly an immense feeling to write about the things that disheartened me, it got me through the day; it somehow thrilled me to wake up each morning, knowing that I had a story to tell.
ďI Need To WriteĒ
Iíve become satisfied with the fact that the black clouds are here to stay,
Iíve done my finest to be a gentle soul, but things just donít seem to go my way,
Now love has turned me sour, situations remain maddening, and there was nothing anyone could tell me,
who knew that the one that I gave my all to, would eventually fail me,
Thereís just so much to do, so little time, my gloomy state has been a constant fight,
I knew no one else to turn to, puzzled and emotional, I just had to write
I have a terrible secret, and deep down in my heart, I know that youíre the only one who can keep it. Memories of tender years so very long ago have been eating me up inside, so I thought Iíd let someone know. To think I had come to the conclusion that it wasnít worth it anymore. Now Iíve decided to uncover my painful past, so I hope itís not all a bore. Hopefully someday someone will stumble upon these words Iíve written, and decide no to take their life for granted. Itís a shame Iíve just come to that conclusion, and after all this damageÖ